RNrecovery
Silver Member
I had to post and say thanks. I was a lurker then a posted then I went back to lurking. It’s been a rough few years. I went into survival mode over the last few months. I came to the decision that I had to change my work.
Next week I start a new position outside of a clinic. I won’t be taking care of patients anymore. I will be working mostly from home. I can’t wait to have quiet. I can’t wait to be in my own space where I don’t have to worry about people coming into my office and making demands. I won’t have to be running on fumes then try tp help suicidal patient. No more begging patients to get treatment only to have them die because they don’t believe COVID is real. No more people yelling at my because a prescription didn’t get filled immediately two minutes after I found out someone died.
I am glad I was there when I was. I know I was needed at the time. But my mental health suffered. I’ve been living in a constant state of high alert for months.
I’ve seen you all make difficult steps and push yourselves to heal. I’m not out of the woods yet. I still feel raw, tired, and overwhelmed. But I can actually see room to heal now.
Next week I start a new position outside of a clinic. I won’t be taking care of patients anymore. I will be working mostly from home. I can’t wait to have quiet. I can’t wait to be in my own space where I don’t have to worry about people coming into my office and making demands. I won’t have to be running on fumes then try tp help suicidal patient. No more begging patients to get treatment only to have them die because they don’t believe COVID is real. No more people yelling at my because a prescription didn’t get filled immediately two minutes after I found out someone died.
I am glad I was there when I was. I know I was needed at the time. But my mental health suffered. I’ve been living in a constant state of high alert for months.
I’ve seen you all make difficult steps and push yourselves to heal. I’m not out of the woods yet. I still feel raw, tired, and overwhelmed. But I can actually see room to heal now.