whiteraven
MyPTSD Pro
I don't know how to manage this emotionally. My manager has started to shut me out of everything. I'm in a position where I report to her, but others report to me. She didn't tell me about interviews she's having with potential new hires. She didn't include me. She has pretty much stopped telling me about things I should know.
So I asked about the interviews today. And the training, which I am usually responsible for. And she told me that they didn't need me in the interviews and someone else from day shift would be training (for the evening new hires). She also told me they were hiring 2 - we don't have room for two.
So I finally asked her if I was still going to be in my position and she referred me to the director. I made an appointment for tomorrow; she's including HR.
All of this (and a ton of other stuff) tells me I'm facing a huge change that is likely not in my favor. I don't think I'll be fired - they usually go about it in a different way - but I would not be surprised if they removed me from my current position.
*If* I were to get fired, I am totally screwed. If I *just* get moved to another position - which would be a demotion - I don't think I could handle it emotionally. Something similar happened with another job a long time ago and I broke. I ended up on leave for a long time, then they got rid of my position. I can't afford to be without work or on leave.
I know I'm creating this huge thing out of something that hasn't happened yet, but I've been here twice. And I am always terrified of not being able to pay bills or my mortgage, worried that I will not have a place to live.
So I asked about the interviews today. And the training, which I am usually responsible for. And she told me that they didn't need me in the interviews and someone else from day shift would be training (for the evening new hires). She also told me they were hiring 2 - we don't have room for two.
So I finally asked her if I was still going to be in my position and she referred me to the director. I made an appointment for tomorrow; she's including HR.
All of this (and a ton of other stuff) tells me I'm facing a huge change that is likely not in my favor. I don't think I'll be fired - they usually go about it in a different way - but I would not be surprised if they removed me from my current position.
*If* I were to get fired, I am totally screwed. If I *just* get moved to another position - which would be a demotion - I don't think I could handle it emotionally. Something similar happened with another job a long time ago and I broke. I ended up on leave for a long time, then they got rid of my position. I can't afford to be without work or on leave.
I know I'm creating this huge thing out of something that hasn't happened yet, but I've been here twice. And I am always terrified of not being able to pay bills or my mortgage, worried that I will not have a place to live.