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To answer your question, yes, I'm on medication, it is for major depression. It is not working. I take anxiety medication...not helping. I get violent bodily reactions from my stress, as in food makes me (involuntarily) throw up, I shake, my hair is falling out. ...etc.

Truth is, I DID trust someone, my DOCTOR. He has failed, as all he did was offer me one solution, to an already distraught person. The first few replies were helpful, but the ones suggesting I go inpatient, we're not. Been there, done that, it was scary not helpful at all. You lose all rights as...

Funny you mentioned TMS...he has that there...but did not offer. Think he just does not want me as a patient since taking my case probono...

I can appreciate your sentiment, thank you for your kind words, but without me, my daughters have "the system" which we all know is very much a broken one. I have raised my children on my own, for the past 17 years, kept them away from the many things I had to endure. I have PTSD from...

Thank you. I will try the YouTube videos you suggested. Another person, in PM told me about it. It's kind of like drowning right now, I can catch my breath for a second, then back under I go.

I wish I could give you a hug.

I reached out to my doctor today. He said that I should seek inpatient treatment and that ECT may "snap" me out of my depression. This would mean putting my children in foster care, God only knows what they would endure, and possibly not believed. I have had much experience with not being...

I apologize for taking so long to respond to all your kind words. It made me feel less alone. I find social media to be a poor substitute for true human contact, which is hard for people with obstacles such as ours. I am truly and deeply sorry for your losses. If I could hug you I would. All...

Doctors can't help. I have no one. No hope. In hell. No one . Getting darker.

Thank you for the kind words. I just feel like I'm on the darkest side of hell right now.

Plant with no sunshine or water =dead plant.

I don't want to exist anymore.

I am on my last leg. Not much left of me to love or anything. I will be gone. Nothing helps anymore. My life is in tatters and no support system.

Nothing makes it better, nightmares are the worst. Boyfriend left, said I was a spaz. Told people private things, any time we have problems he would say...the cheese has fallen off the cracker instead of trying to comfort me. Made me go places he knew I was uncomfortable, and then would make a...

Why because people scare me. I try to trust. Often big mistake. I don't feel like trying anymore. Been trying for over two decades....Nothing helps, and the shrinks don't get it.