Recent content by alienplantnapper

Thank you guys... Sorry it took a while to get back. I made it through the month and the depression eased up some. I didn't go to the hospital, my therapist dropped me because I didn't show or call (I have a trust issue aanyway). The thing is, I keep having these sometimes random moments of...

Not really...I figured it's depersonalization too. It's weird.

Sometimes I dunno who I am Right after conversations, I feel like I don't recognize who was speaking, Why was I speaking, Do I know what I'm talking about? Sometimes I try not to speak to anyone Because I don't know who's taking or why I've said the things I've said. All the time these days.

Depression is getting overwhelming. I keep thinking about planning my death. Planning so that I have time to get some things in order. At the same time, I'm at a point that I'm constantly trying not to break down...a point that I feel like with all the stress I'm under, I'm likely to snap and do...

Just an update. I quit therapy a couple months ago, and medication. I'm doing better dealing with things for now. Less reactionary, less symptomatic. But I've changed. More negative but not horribly so..still not doing things I used to love. My personality has changed. Still have voices but it's...

No material things. Just this body. Even clothing I've worn just in times where my mind wasn't right f*cks me up.. Everything I could possibly let go from times of trauma, was gone with a quickness.

It did make me a little tired at first before the increase, so id started taking it at night. But after the increase the fatigue is ridiculous.

Hi.. I upped my zoloft dose to 100mg a few weeks ago and For a couple of weeks now ive been super sleepy day and night. I haven't even taken any sleep meds for weeks now because im so tired all the time i can sleep no problem its just staying awake and having energy ad motivation that are hard...

I recently quit my job. Id been having a really hard time and trying to get my meds and everything adjusted. I think i definitely need the time ..but i did put myself in a bind financially. I would suggest taking some time off first if that's possible.

Thank you.. Its reassuring to hear from a supporters side.

Yesssss...i feel like a walking closet full of junk trying to keep closed do much of the time, but like tennis balls n stuff keep rolling out...eeek

Kinda funny not funny...we had just fallen in love then i had a huge relapse after actually thinking that the ptsd was gone after 6 yrs. ..he was the first person i went to when i was spiraling out and he was there for me through hospitalization and everything so far.. Hes unbelievably solid...

I guess i worry that he's going to realize that this stuff affects me pretty much round the clock at times and see that its more than he thought.. And, i dont know... I do know that you're right... I just have such a fear of ppl seeing me on bad days and how they will see me, And ultimately...

So...my person has been spending nights with me, which i like, which mostly goes well..however, ive been off work for several days now and we have spent the last 3 days and nights together and ive been a bit of a mess. .i try to hold it together as much as i can while he and my children are...

I want to apologize if i offended anyone when i said about how ppls stories make me feel. Im just projecting how i feel about myself because I'm not there yet i guess. Im sorry for being callous.