andrew_d

I have had issues since childhood. I witnessed, and was part of violence and excessive anger as a child (used to get anxiety and nervous around father, and men in general) and at least 4 juvenile brain injuries. Then, as an adult, 4 auto accidents before the age of 25 (one was a 27 car pileup in indianapolis) none of which were my fault, then the big one (i was ejected from a vehicle hit by a semi on m94 near the 140 exit in michigan and awoke in the hospital ON my 33rd birthday almost to the minute of my birthtime 9:33am th accident occured at 12pm july 20/21...lots of time in surgery 14 hours [fun huh]). It made my life upside-down and a true hell, but after 12 years of EMDR which isn't/wasn't that effective for me, other than causing triggered memories to put me in inpatient care twice.
the funny think is having found out the basis and features of ptsd, i realized i've had it since i was 5 and i'm 47 and now getting better, as i have finally helped myself. the hyperactive diagnoses and the bipolar meds given in excess and way too high a level and did damage also on many levels led me to find the only thing thats ever helped:..."medicinal" candies, and their base ingredients (wink), and a curiosity toward the 1914 german cure of mdma treatments...thanks for reading what seems like a rambling, but i lose focus and interest quick sometimes, and now is one...thanks again...drew de++en.