Recent content by asimone

I get that 100%. I'm diagnosed with severe clinical depression. It sucks and is brutally consuming. I watch TV to help distract and give myself a break as best I can when I'm in it deep... But, I have an injury where I can't walk right now so I'm limited with coping tools. I hope you have a few...

@Vero I met about 7 or 10 different therapists (ptsd specialists and regular therapists who say they can do everything - they can't do PTSD well, btw) before I found one that I felt okay with and didn't have any red flags. It can take time. I saw some for 3 appointments at first out of guilt...

I totally understand feeling like you don't have the chance to get to everything you feel you need to. I tell my T if I have a couple of things I need to discuss right away before I get off track. So maybe at your upcoming appointment (or even email so he knows before hand) tell him you have 3...

I can't take anything, either. I either get severe allergic reactions or adverse side effects like major weight gain (50+ pounds) or hallucinations (really terrifying and not good). In Canada, anything addictive is no longer available for longer than a few days (benzos, pain killers, etc). I'm...

@Survivor3 Thanks so much! I think writing things down is a good idea.

I'm sorry that you didn't find therapy beneficial. Being able to talk to other people who have PTSD is helpful, I'm glad I found this. :)

@Friday Those are really good to know. Thank you! @The Albatross I'm really glad you found what works for you. I'm slow, steady, small steps. @Mach123 Interesting. I never thought of that. @Justmehere I'm not rambling about things that aren't relevant to my trauma with her, I'm trying...

I think that's what she's letting me do right now, just let me talk for now until she said that comment (I was rambling about my mom and doctor reacting poorly to another rambling/anger episode that happened outside therapy). She's actually the most experienced trauma therapist I've found (and...

She's on vacation, so I have some time to process and figure out what to say - but I think talking to her is probably the best next step. If that goes badly, then I will take some time for myself and decide if I want to continue. I think this ^^ is what she meant, glazing over like as being on...

So it probably is a PTSD response? It sure feels like it. The shame and embarrassment after is awful. Did you do anything specific to manage it or it just calmed as time went on? I feel like I'm not really doing anything productive or learning anything in therapy because it's just me rambling...

Hey everyone, I'm new here. Every therapy session I have, T asks me how I am and as soon as I start talking, I can't stop anxiously rambling and venting almost the entire hour, but I'm not even sure of what I'm saying. It's just coming out of me. It's not a conversation and at times I don't...