Recent content by averyave

Thanks for the responses. I really appreciate it. And T-Light "Writing has done wonders for me" ... So far this is the first time I ever wrote about it, and it is helping. I think its the first time I ever made a conscious decision to move towards getting past this stuff. And yes, I need...

Oh, and I gave it another shot, but with a psychologist that my friends dad knew. She was a really genuine person who would speak to you like a real person, not a zombie saying tell me about that and such. She would tell me what she really thought, and saw me for the person (who is basically...

I tried to see a psychiatrist in the past. He tried to diagnose me with first ADD (without hyperactivity) But those meds just felt all speedy to me. So therefore my next meeting I may be Bipolar so he gave me those meds to "try". Its like he was diagnosing instantly and if a drug worked it...

psychedelics can be rather scary if you have a panic attack while on them. Even certain kinds of sativa strain marijuana can intensify a panic attack due to its stimulant nature (happened to me a few times) What did you take if you dont mind me asking?

Oh, and from what I have been told from my Mom.. she was mentally, verbally, and beaten as a child. From my uncle, I think know that he dealt with some very unusual things in the family as well.... but I dont ask any questions about that. Its kinda messed up but that family is very wealthy...

thanks Yes, I know it was a little long .. actually could have gone longer with all the details. I really appreciate your response .. alot. I like your point that this is a "learned behavior." I have a good friend who is very easy going and upbeat, and I notice the more I am around...

I understand you a bit here... as far as its hard to explain the intensity of the emotional verbal and mental abuse from an abusive parent. And when a you are a kid, its kinda like the parent is an uncontrollable force and you are just standing in the wake of a deadly storm. The fear sets in...

Sorry to hear your stories. Mine has similar tones. Im just glad I found this site today. It sounds weird but I was convinced by her to feel guilty for feeling upset for her verbal/mental abuse. I vented my story in a post. I hope the moderator allows it to go up. I guess my point is...

Im not a doctor... and my past is not as tough as what you have seen, but xanax stops my "circle thinking" I know its not good to take forever, but if your doctor lets you have some occasionally, its like a vacation for me from my bad thoughts

I have problems and alot of emotional pain. Im 31 years old now. I remember being verbally and mentally abused almost daily as a little kid. I always feel guilty about everything and anything as thats how I was raised. Please let me know in your responses if I am allowed to feel this pain...