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Thinking of you Mach. Logged in to see how things were going. Be well. -B

Thank you, Anthony ?

Hang in there Mach. I'll keep you in my thoughts. I wish you peace in whatever comes.

Hi omen... This type 2 - hypomania thing sounds like it deserves consideration. I have long believed that there may be some genetic pieces at play (thanks nessa) which perhaps were confused or masked by the PTSD in childhood. It is all a jumble. Perhaps nailing down the inherent "abnormality"...

Hi Luna, Thank you for coming here, and sharing with us. Support cannot exist if no one is willing to seek it. I did have CSA, from around 2 or 3 years old, that really just continued into my teens and then my adult life too. So I may be able to relate to some things...but my family was...

Hi everyone. Thanks so much for all of your responses. I have read, and am considering what's been said here. I am not sure if I have BPD. Either it is that, with a tendency to be on the depressed side most of the time...or just straight up depression with extended periods of avoidance-fueled...

Hi ppippi, I want to say, firstly, that I am only offering my opinion here, and that my opinion is based pretty much entirely on my own CSA experiences. Okay. So to me, what makes this abusive is the vulnerable and impossible position that it left you in...the days and weeks after that...

Hey everyone, About a year ago I took a major hit psychologically, and it left me wondering if I was doing the right thing with my meds. Nothing particularly triggered this low point - it was mainly the gradual realization that, while my panic, anxiety, anger, hypervigilance and depression were...

Therapist: "How are you feeling today?" Me: "Really?" Therapist: "DBT or CPT will make EMDR and PTSD for your MHTC." Me: "What?" Therapist: "Your EMDR. It will DID if you don't hurry and cPTSD your ACT." Me: "I feel like shit and you're acronyms aren't helping."

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Shame was recently explained to me as a public manifestation of personal guilt. I didn't really get it at first, and once I did think that I understood what that meant...I didn't put much stock in it. Basically, it seemed to me that I was being told my shame was just a massive level of...

Just thinking about you and hoping you're doing well. Glad to read you got the test done, but feel bad that this waiting process is so painful in its own way. But you are equal to this, I know that much. Take care, Mach :) -Brian

Hi Zen. It was nice to see your message here. This week is better? Its hard to say if I'm feeling better, or just avoiding feeling bad. One good thing this week is that had an appointment with my T, and it went better than it has in months. I have a super busy weekend, but I hope to write...

Glad to read you finally got the test scheduled, Mach! Been thinking about you, and hoping for good news. All of my fingers and toes are crossed for you!

I think they are also scared that they're going to get sued for missing something. We have the same sort of alarmism right now at the VA, in regard to suicide prevention. You tell them you have a headache and they're asking you if you have thoughts of hurting yourself. Different...