Recent content by Bahaba

"A man convinced against his will is a man that remains unconvinced still" This is probably the root of all my problems right now. Deep down I KNOW this.

I'm going to call them tomorrow. I have had cases open with them before. My husband finally quit hitting me because I got to the point that I kept calling the cops Everytime he hit me so he got a felony probation after 4 times in jail and will go to prison if it happens again. They will probably...

I'm going to look into it, I guess since I haven't been physically abused in a long time I didn't think of them as an option. I'm going to go to a PTSD therapist next Wednesday. I will talk with the DV place in my town. Idk if you have to have an open case to have them council you. I will find...

I don't know the right decision to make. I just wish I could find a way to quit being so angry until then.

I feel like I went through it for so long its like "muscle memory". Just constant reactions in my body. It's draining the life out of me.

I watch like a hawk for the ABCs! I cant take even the slightest insult, off look.. Im cant tolerate anything, If it cant be good then Im just going to leave. He knows this. I was definitely primed to take abuse from my childhood family. I have stood up for myself with them too. Thats one of the...

Ive been reading about PTSD and some suggested to get on a forum and talk with others. I really appreciate you all taking your time to talk with me. Ive got a lot to figure out. I agree, maybe the change in me isnt the best for my kids, im on edge a lot. I dont ever take it out on them, Its...

I made an appointment with a therapist who specializes in PTSD. I know leaving my husband sounds like the answer, but leaving just adds more stress to my kids. I just wish I could find a way to deal with this without my family suffering anymore heartache and pain. Sure I may feel better not...

I think the hardest part is that I cant control my feelings. My mind is trying to forgive but the inside of me is literally crawling and feels like lashing out all the time. I waited years for him to stop the abuse and now that it has stopped and we have a chance to make the family work, I just...

We have both been through DV counceling. I dont fear being abused anymore. I just still have constant knee-jerk reactions. Im overly sensitive to everything anyone says and does. My self esteem is completely gone from years of insults, Its hard to forgive when I cant forget all that has been...

Hi, I am new to the forum, I am currently struggling with PTSD from 6 years of domestic violence. I am still married and the violence has stopped for over a year and a half now. However, I am constantly reminded of what happened and I live on edge and feel like im going to snap all the time. Im...