Recent content by Becksknox

I can only hope. It just hurts with the good times we had and being engaged that he could just marry someone that fast that he doesn't even know and act like I mean nothing.

Thank you guys. I can't even figure out why I care. I tried to make a list of reasons I love him and seriously there were none.

@Milo's papa I just found out he is now marrying this person he's been with for maybe 5 weeks. We were together 2 years and getting married. To say I am devastated doesn't begin to explain it. I thought I was doing better but this just knocked the breath out of me and I can't move out of my bed...

Nope the manipulator can't handle it when they realize they are losing control over you.

That's so true. When I went off on him the other day and treated him like he treated me he was shocked and actually apologized.

Thank you. I have days of being angry at them. Then it goes away and the deep hurt comes back. For months I couldn't get out of bed. I would cry or stare at walls all day. I'm very thankful that I have a great therapist now that is helping me see where all this comes from and why I'm trying to...

I'm sorry. I get angry, then feel bad and ask forgiveness. I need to forgive myself for my mistakes and stop being angry at me. I think I'm more angry with myself then with the ones that I allow to destroy me.

Yes, you're right. It hurts to be crushed so much though by the ones we love the most. My therapist told me the other day how incredible my loving heart was and she said it's rare, but I said I hate it bc it just leaves me ripped apart. I've chosen the broke people for so long that I have no...

@Whispering_Truth You do exactly what I do, but I think people see me as vulnerable bc I am nice and caring almost to a fault. And trusting. It makes me want to give up altogether.

@Whispering_Truth I may have your long list beat! LOL. I've never picked a good or kind person but they are always charmers to begin with and I get snowed every time.

@Whispering_Truth You have no idea how badly I want that. All I've ever known is abusive relationships. Through counseling I've figured it out and I now know what it's like to have a healthy relationship. Prayers for us both.

@Whispering_Truth oh he's a charmer. It'll come out soon with his alcohol abuse and inner anger that is so out of control. I actually feel bad for her because she is so much younger than him and he will destroy her too

@nursenurse Thank you. I suffer from anxiety, severe depression and PTSD. My dr, trying new things with my meds out me on Prozac one month ago and I truly believe that's the downward spiral. I can be in a totally normal mood and then lose it for no reason. I'm going next month to CA to have...

@nursenurse the depression over this man is gone. Just pure curiosity how someone you thought was one person is the exact opposite seemingly overnight. I've been in therapy and irking on me and I can say for the first time in years, I am happy with me. It just seems like daily I find out more...

Thank you @FridayJones @Sweetpea76 @NoWhereKnowWhere. I am not holding onto any hope. After 2 years of never giving up, I am so done. I was just curious. I truly feel bad for the girl bc at 20 years younger and quite immature from what I've seen she has no idea what she's in for and I truly feel...