Recent content by Beks

I feel stupid, grumpy, I don't belong anywhere but I apparently do. Im not me anymore, I dunno.

hey, Try think about your breathing, and maybe have some music that you like on? Just a couple of things that might help you keep focused. The faint could be not breathing enough, if your taking a long time chewing / zoned out.

I also suffer from this, Im in mid 30's now. I was never good with dates and times but that seemed to be something else, not understanding numbers. Since abuse trauma and PTSD in late 20's, its like my brain was wrecked. I get so frustrated and depressed, because I know I could do stuff before...

Hello, Ive been told I have hypermobility, and that the best way is to strengthen and coordinate muscles. So I find pain tends to go away when: 1) I put Turmeric / Curcumin in my food: like a half teaspoon in my morning smoothie, in curry dinner, etc. It needs to be 'proper' stuff, not the...

Oh dear, that does actually sounds like me... :( Iv never had cough medicine whilst on antimalarials to compare though.

Iv seen a number of therapists over the years, Ive been attacked by men before and after therapies, and each therapist has had a differing point of view. I have to say that the last therapist blatantly said that it was my fault, because I come across weak. I wanted to punch her in the face, but...

Hi, Im not sure what kind of narcissist you mean (just self obsessed and selfish? or plus abusive) and I don't have any definite answers but here's what Iv done being stuck with an abusive mum. Ive gone to as many therapies, assertiveness courses and other confidence courses I can find and...

Hi Argo32, I empathise with you here; one of my abusers was a well practised sociopath who did similar things to what you describe (said he deliberately learned how to manipulate and hurt people, admitting why he did this and that to me) and also made recordings, manipulated others to think...

Thankyou everyone it makes more sense now, I will ditch 'the diagnosis'. Simply Simon - you really rang bells for me there, as my mum ticks all the boxes for the same and has been abusive much of the time. Through dissociative amnesia I can't remember what I was like as a very young child -...

I came across a test for Autism and PDA through a link on facebook, it is on a bloggers site who has pathological demand avoidance - I had never heard of this before. I followed the tests with curiosity: for PDA I got a 'likely to have it', and for Autism I got nearly full marks, 'very likey...

thankyou for your encouragement and insight into what is going on with these assessments. I will send a letter tomorrow, there is no website so will be a slow process.

Will try.... and politely

So I had a review of my illnesses last week by the benefits people, and today I get a letter of what the assessor said - he lied from start to finish, basically saying that I had said how fantastic Im doing, out all the time, fit and healthy and enjoying life, lie lie lie lies. I never said...

Nervous laugh, happens at most innappropriate times... also crying laughter too, but not in the happy way, like too much emotion.

I've had multiple traumas since young childhood, been told I have cPTSD after major adult trauma but not BPD even though reading about BPD and going through the listed symptoms recently matches me to 5/ 6 of them. My mum definitely matches BPD amongst other things. Im not going to look for help...