BLA

I am single mom of 4 who believed for many, many years that I had dealt with my childhood trauma. Now as I am swimming in fear and confusion I realize I lied to myself and everyone. I was faking it. I was not as okay as I would have everyone believe. I had/have unresolved issues that have led me to put myself in situations that have just multiplied my issues so now I am doubting my memory, reality, my decision making, my abilities, my worthiness of love and my once held belief that I am basically a good person. This sucks but I am trying to tell myself being honest with myself is the first step.