Blue1964

I am a soon-to-be 48 y/o male on disability for Major Depression and I have degenerative bone disease, amongst a myriad of other health issues...

Recently diagnosed with Dissociative Disorder NOS (Not Otherwise Specified) ...and I just thought I was depressed. Over the Years, I have seen Dr.s and a few therapists since I was 18 y/o. a few different Psychiatrist and therapists have said I was Bi Polar and the most recent was, Major Depressive Disorder by my current Psychiatrist.

Never before have I had a Therapist as good as the one I have now. However recently she shared what she put down as my diagnosis and it is more disturbing to me than I thought it would be, but she has managed to be the only one to recognize I had early childhood trauma and help me deal with it thru EMDR. I am familiar with it from a previous therapist that actually was not certified and brought up some stuff and left me not in a safe place when we closed the session and I have been suffering for years and not been able to find another therapist till the last 3 months, I have been seeing the current one.

Anyway after midnight is my 48th birthday. Yes I was born on Halloween. This year I have absolutely no desire to celebrate it in any form. in fact i have a session with her on Nov 1st. I just have got to the point I just don't want to leave the safety of my computer room.

I game a lot to get out of my head and not think too much and my partner and therapist think I shouldn't spend too much time gaming.

At any rate, if anyone can relate, Please feel free to contact me...I need others who can understand and not be judgmental to talk with, if ur out there...message me Please

Also, If there is anything else u wanna know about me ...please feel free to ask...

Peace, Tom