Recent content by Bukowski25

I am confused. I am strongly considering taking a break from my LTR. I am thinking a three-month period, and possibly moving out after that time and dating while living separately. My boyfriend has PTSD and we have been together for a year and a half. (Living together for a year). We have had...

This is a rant. A no holding back, awful thoughts as they come to me rant. I am too exhausted to be understanding right now. I am too exhausted to support you right now. I am too exhausted to keep up a positive attitude when your mood bounces up and down every half hour. I don't give a sh*t...

In the beginning weeks of my relationship I knew that my boyfriend had anger issues, and responded irrationally to small stressful situations. As we got closer I saw these instances intensify, become more common, and manifest in more aspects of daily life than I had been aware of. I spoke with...

@Toria Thank you for saying that, the intention wasn't there--I have forgiven myself as well as apologized for responding in that manner, but it feels very nice to have someone unbiased affirm that. I generally respond in tears when I am upset (angry, frustrated or sad), but in this instance we...

@Purplemunchkin Thank you for responding. I found my therapist because I needed someone I could talk to about his bad times and past history without invading his privacy. There have been times when I talk to friends about "bad" times but they don't really get it--so, somewhat similarly to the...

I think this thread is a great idea. I have yet to post in the Angry Thread yet, but I think it's an incredibly therapeutic, safe and relieving space. Knowing it's there is comforting to me. The idea that anger and frustration, when it does rear its head--however ugly, unfair, selfish...

Thanks for reaching out @Purplemunchkin, there is an incredible amount of comfort in finding a community to relate to. I am still adjusting to finding that balance, I ideally want him to support me in all respects I would desire from any partner. The challenge is holding out until the...

@Purplemunchkin "Kiss him, tell him I love him, back off and give him space, cry. Remind myself of all of the good, so-so and even bad days. Remind myself that the number of good and so-so days outnumber the really bad days. Remind myself of how far he, and we, have come since the beginning, and...

Thank you for sharing this!

@whserenitynluv :happy: I am happy you were able to connect, I was very ashamed when I wrote this out. It makes me feel better knowing someone took something away from it.

Thank you so much for the feedback everyone, I truly appreciate it. @whserenitynluv Thank you so much for your response. Your words really resonated with me. During a late night chat he shared that a hug would be very soothing for him when he gets very worked up, but also expressed that it is...

My partner was starting to fall into that "bad" space when he could not find his medication last week. We were running late for something and he was frustrated for a number of reasons: he felt foolish that he had forgotten where he put it, felt pressured by time, and was visually stressed by the...

Hi all, I am new to myPTSD and have never participated in a forum, so I am oddly nervous. Having read through multiple threads I felt an immediate relief at the "support" I felt just by reading about member's similar experiences and emotions. I have been a relationship with my boyfriend for...