Cari-K

I lived my entire life in Seattle until I moved to a remote area in the high desert of central Oregon at age 50, in an attempt to escape my many demons. Of course it didn't work out that way, but I have found relative peace and even healing in the isolation and beauty of the sagebrush wilderness. I met a mate shortly after moving here, built my own house and off-grid solar system by learning from books and the internet, and acquired quite a few animals. I am now 57 and trying to face my past instead of hiding from it. I have been unable to work for 8 years, overcome by anxiety and self-loathing, and finally realized that numbing myself with alcohol wasn't going help if I wanted to stay alive. So here I am, trying to make changes and scared as hell. I don't trust anything as solid ground, but I keep telling myself to just take the next step forward, into the unknown.