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@shandemonium I think going to the funeral is a terrible idea and im dreading every moment of it. I plan to get my hands on some xanax and just zone out for 2 days. When my other granny passed I swear during a family picture that my father kept touching my ass and i would turn around and he...

@shandemonium thank you very much for your reply. I really needed that. Today is a rough day as I have to go to a funeral in a few days for my fathers mother. I cant even grieve her cause im overwhelmed with anxiety thinking about being around my family. Im not close with any of my siblings...

@Dana1010 thank you .

@Dana1010 @digger I agree they will never understand. I told my father I would never live in that house again and he called me rude and said that no one has done anything to me. I feel like he may be a sociopath, but I have seen him cry. Does this mean he is just an evil person and not a...

@J_trustno1 thank you for sharing your story. I too was abused, choked and beaten to be specific.Im pretty sure I was sexually abused but I think I have blocked those memories. Im new to this forum and find that just sharing is part of the healing process. I feel like I dwell and cry a lot...

@SAG your may 11th post sounded it came from my mouth. I hope your days get easier and that you understand your are not to blame. I am fighting many similar battles and start therapy soon. Scared but ready and tired of being so mean to everyone around me. good luck again!:)

@ghotiff Yes I have an appointment in two weeks. It is very overdue. I wish there was a quick fix button or a way of forgetting it all.

@intothelight Thanks.

Hi, I am new to this and I guess using it as a starting point to recovering. I have so many issues, from depression, insecurities, social anxiety, nightmares, mood swings, lying the list goes on. I do not remember being sexually abused but i do have nightmares about my father chasing me in the...