Recent content by Cyrene

Yes, I am. As I mentioned in my post, I'm planning on involving my old therapist somehow, whether it's actually going to sessions with her again to let her decide if I need to be referred to a trauma specialist, or just asking her if she can recommend any to me.

Yeah, my mom told me that a couple of times, too. But 1) I don't think the issue is as simple as "oh, Mom said it, now I don't have to worry anymore," probably because 2) it feels like I got such conflicting messages from her. I mean, my parents sort of sheltered my sister for the first couple...

Something that just occurred to me based on recent life stuff and looking over that CEN questionnaire... I know I definitely have trouble calming myself down from being upset, and I think it's because I apparently grew up absorbing the expectation that I didn't have any right to be comforted --...

I sleep way too much (side effect of the depression, likely as not), so I'm okay in that regard...sort of. I guess sleeping too much is, in its own way, a lack of self-care, lol. Food, though...I've noticed that lately (the past couple of years) I feel like I don't deserve to ask my parents to...

This is me right now too. Webb's book is on my to-buy list as soon as I scrape enough money for it, heh. For the longest time I grew up with the notion that my parents were doing everything they could to be loving parents, especially with two mentally disabled children to take care of, so...

@macca: Not at all! You're fine. :) Yeah, my mom was constantly vacillating between "Don't worry about your sister, things will work out" and "You have to take care of her when we're gone!" I honestly never believed her when she told me not to worry about my sister, but part of me is still...

Thanks for your kind comments, everyone! I'll probably be lurking here more than anything, but this seems like a good community to be in. :) @macca, that sounds like a really tough situation to grow up in. I was fortunate that my parents were generally kind to me, but it's like you said -- they...

(Warning: This post may be slightly "politically incorrect" due to discussion of people with mental disabilities; I will try my best to be respectful, but I do apologize in advance for any faux pas on my part. Part of me trying to recover from whatever is going on in my brain is having to come...