Recent content by Footsie1980

Ok, I was cleared of any charges on this. I wouldnt be dumb enough to incriminate myself online. I have had both me and my daughter going to counseling for a few months now and it is helping on a personal level. This post was not meant to be all inclusive of all of my PTSD struggles, I was...

LOL, thats one way to look at it.

I I feel guilty for taking peoples lives. That wasnt my decision to make, it was Gods. I could of just injured them, im good with a handgun, but I chose to kill them. The fact that I could make that decision, makes me not like who I am or who ive become. If that makes sense.

Part of me thinks the same thing. Like "how could he put me through his games and lies, sit back and watch me fight for my life, then watch me turn into an emotional wreck, having nightmares, panic attacks, being so angry, and then tell me he wont help me?" But, the other part of me knows that...

If he had been able to, im sure he would of, but he wasnt home. I explained in more detail above, Thank you

Honestly, my husband never believed the problems were that big of a deal until I had someone come to our home and threaten my and our daughters life with a gun. He was at work when this happened and the police in the hillbilly town we were in, wouldnt take action or do anything, I tried. These...

My family was in danger, I did some horribly violent things to protect and help them. It was my decision to do these things, not my husbands or daughters, but I was protecting my family. Im having serious trouble accepting the things that I did. I hurt other people and took away thier ability to...

Hi, I was diagnosed with PTSD and my ex husband had CPTSD, as you can imagine, that was pretty hard at times. I initiated the divorce from him and it was because after 5 years, he still wouldnt tell me he had ANY issues, but his doctors told me and I could tell. Because he never opened up and...

Although I am the one in my marriage who has PTSD, my husband has some issues similiar to what youve described your boyfriend having. I was mad, for a long time, that he never gave me a real apology for the emotionally controlling and abusive things he did (which is not why I have PTSD) but...

Cashew, I also disagree with your post (no disrespect) I have a 9 year old daughter and although I love her, Im her mother and nothing will change that, my motherly insticnts and little moments where Id feel happy on the inside because she was happy or because I was proud of her, those are gone...

Thats one thing I actually see as a positive now, I can reasonably sit down and ask myself, "was this worth giving up who I am and basically having any comfortable life anymore". Im happy that Im still semi-sane and can ask myself that, if that makes sense. Whenever somebody expresses thier...

I know how you feel, almost exactly. 10 years in, 4 tours and more blood on my hands then I can handle. I have social and public anxiety pretty bad too. Im always waiting and watching for something to happen. I can never just relax. I have trouble talking to people about it because honestly I...

Hi everyone. Little about me, I was diagnosed with PTSD about 5 years ago, didnt actively try to help myself until about a year ago, which has pretty much been a crap shoot so far. On and off some self medications, trying to raise a daughter, work full time and be a wife to my husband who...