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I ended up getting mad he didnt text back and said we should just be pals. whats wrong with me ?!

He didnt respond to my text that i needed him. Everytime i am vulerable i kind of regret it. weve only known each other three montjs. it seems im either pushing away or being too reliant.

I have such a hard time asking for what i need or feel guilty and unworthy when i do. so i feel like i should just accept what is handed to me from him.

I think I am. Bad habit.

Has anyone ever been hospitalized for depression ? I had been a few years back and around this time I always get horrible paranoia and flashbacks of a woman in the unit screaming in my face how she would kill me. Went through withdrawal of two medications. "No meds till your blood pressure goes...

I have a new boyfriend. He's nice,seems very calm,not many triggers. But of course, my ptsd crawls into it. I will te him about my traumas and he will say"im sorry" and thats it ! He will rub my back and just sit there in silence. It is making me feel distanced. Or is it just in my ptsd to...