Recent content by Gloomy

I hate my father. I hate my father. I hate my father. I hate my father. I hate my father. I hate my father. I hate my father.

Someone recently left me because I couldn't trust him and didn't tell him everything about my life. I agree :( "trust is earned. Not bestowed." This is spot on.

:'( I badly need someone to console me right now.

Thanks for welcoming! I don't have any support system. No close friends, no supporting family. No therapist either. I tried this but couldn't even trust my therapist.

I am loved.

I really want to trust someone with all my heart. I want to share everything but I can't let go of my guard. Will I ever be able to trust anyone? I wish I had this type of a person in my life whom I could trust and with whom I could feel safe. There's no one in my life who makes me feel safe...

Yes it is safe. But not good for my mental health. In the future when I'm more independent I'll move out God willing. Thank you for the understanding and support. You are absolutely right @blackemerald1. I appreciate I have to deal with my thoughts and emotions and my distrust is not reasonable.

Yes, you are right. Actually I tried talking to a psychologist a few weeks ago online and that didn't work so now I think I should see someone in person. May be that will help. I'm still living with my family as I'm not independent yet.

I remember what happened to me as a child. I get flashbacks that my dad is doing that to me. And I keep thinking about it. No I'm not seeing any therapist, nor is there anyone around me who I can confide in.

I'm getting flashbacks and I can't do anything :'( I don't want to think about it but can't stop.

Thank you :) Dear I'm so sorry to know you've been through so much. Thank you for writing in this thread and letting me know I'm not alone and that you understand me. So basically we both are in the same boat! Hope we both get healed from this trauma soon. Yes I agree there are good people...

Thank you so much. But therapy is not an option for me since I have tried to talk to psychologists and it makes my condition worse just by discussing what happened to me, so I had to close that option :( And I'm so sorry to know that you went through something similar :( I was abused by my own...

Thank you for the welcome! I'm really sad to know that Allie :( Hope you find someone whom you can trust. But I can understand how that feels and why it's difficult to trust anyone.

Hello! New member here! I was sexually abused my my father when I was a child. I suffer from PTSD and the lockdown has brought all the memories back that I'm unable to do anything now. I'm 22 year old and I've decided I won't even marry anyone since I can't trust anyone for that purpose.