Recent content by Iamsioux

I have been in EMDR now for about 8 sessions. I have multiple trauma from severe, repeated child sexual abuse, to 18 years domestic violence. I have been working with a therapist for 2 1/2 years and was refered to an EMDR specialist a few months ago. I can honestly say it is the hardest thing...

This will go on all night, like a demon loop, there is never even a pause, just la dahhhhh (pretend song chorus), la dahhhh, la,dahhhh, over and over and over for days. It is loud. If I manage to sleep I wake up to this in my head, like it never stopped.

I wish I could say that the music in my head is healing. For instance now I have had a line of a song running through my head, over and over and over, loudly for about 8 hours, non-stop. I keep saying, "Stop singing, stop singing." But it never stops and won't go away for days. I will wake up...

I also hear music when I am triggered, or overly stressed. My brain plays current radio tunes, it will pick one, it doesn't have to be something I have heard lately, but I do avoid music when I am stressed as my brain will be more likely to start to play a song more loudly if I just heard it...

If he saw or read any of this he would be devistated. He would walk around the house for days pouting, speaking in a whisper. He cries and begs me to love him back. I feel like I am hurting him horribly. My son's father (my ex) was abusive to my son as well. I put a gun to my husbands head one...

Thank you for your reply. I have printed information for him, I have offered for him to come to my therapists office with me, I suggested he see a counselor and I have asked him to view this site. He has done some great things, he tries to be careful in what he does and says, and then will...

I know this is an old thread, but this is one of the reasons I joined this site. I am the sufferer, but I am the female in love with my husband. Mine is childhood sexual and then violent, 18-year domestic abuse. I am now married to a man who is trying desperately to help me. Although suffering I...