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I recently got a POTS diagnosis after visiting the Mayo Clinic in Rochester, MN. They run that place the way all hospitals should run, imho. They have financial aid and you can get assistance with travel and a place to stay while you get seen to. My mother went with me and it totally changed her...

Trauma can have less of an effect on your life, if you put in the work. It will probably never go away completely, but it’s possible to get to the point where it doesn’t control you. Your brain is only trying to keep you safe, and you need to learn how to tell it that you are safe now. Therapy...

I was 4/5 when I started masturbating and having fantasies that involved humiliation and ridicule. By 12, I was fantasizing about rough sex with older boys and men. It was only after I was raped the first time that I started to have actual rape fantasies. I think it’s all been my brain coping...

It’s pretty normal to have an, “it gets worse before it gets better,” experience with EMDR. It’s like opening an old would to pull out a bullet, cutting out infected tissue, cauterizing it so the bleeding slows/stops, then sewing it back up. You’ll feel a bit raw afterward. There’s nothing wrong...

Sometimes I’m so afraid of dying in a violent way, I think about killing myself so I can at least be the one who decides when and how I go out. Part of it is just the way the world is rn, part of it is my anxiety. I lived through the fires in Northern California last October and I haven’t talked...