Recent content by infoonptsd

Thanks panda, but that's just not something I can do. Inability to confront people with anything is just one of the reasons I am there. I can NOT cause people any hurry or let them know if they hurt me and I know him well enough now to know it would hurt him if he realized how badly this hurt...

Well, it continues for me. .. I didn't mention yesterday's actual appointment because it wasn't a huge deal but when I did arrive for the afternoon time, he had someone in there that ran a few minutes late which is no issue for me at all. BUT when the regular time for the end of my time...

Thanks guys... As it turns out, he had to reschedule the time and forgot to text me. He text a little while ago about something else and said he knew we had a session today but wanted to tell me about something ahead of time. I asked him what time he had the appointment and he told me. He...

Thanks scout and Junebug.... In the past, I have texted him to ask if I messed the schedule up or if he was ok but maybe with the added anxiety I am having right now, I couldn't risk adding the guilt to him if he forgot and he realized I was there. We just talked yesterday about what those...

My t has a crazy schedule, so I am sure something probably went wrong in his scheduling but he didn't arrive for our session today. I have another one scheduled for tomorrow and guess I will just go to that one, but right now it is killing me and all I want is physical pain to make this all go...

Yes barefoot, you are right on the point. I am exactly the same way. I don't want to appear attention seeking, being dramatic, having a pity party or anything close to any of that. We have even talked about that and he had said nothing would make him think that way but it is all in my head...

Thanks for both of your replies @barefoot. I don't like what you said... LOL... but it does sound just like the things he has been saying. Part of my issue is bothering other people with my stuff or doing something that might make people think I am attention seeking. I think that is part of...

Yes, I have noticed he tries to really watch what he says to prevent 'prompting' since some of my issues have been blocked and I only have bits of some stuff. He is really good at what he does, I just hate being such a pain when he's trying so hard to help.

Mine isn't about the talking itself. I can carry on any conversation and even answer his questions when they are hard (as long as it doesn't have to do with him because I am afraid to say something that could be hurtful in regards to issues between him and I at this point). Otherwise, I will...

Scout86,, that is TOOO hilarious... My t just said today "as fast as you can, but as slow as you need to".... LOL Zef, thanks... I can relate. He does ask some things and I notice I STILL only give tiny bits even though he opened the door. Its like I need him to say..... "no, no... there's...

Thanks Scout86, glad to hear I am not completely alone in my craziness. I hate that I feel like I am deceiving him part of the time because I know the information in my head would make his job easier, but it is just like I am not allowed to say. My greatest desire isn't large sums of...

I hope this is not completely crazy, but I have read so many posts about the horrible thoughts about having to disclose trauma details to your t. I am dealing with almost the opposite. I have several 'issues' that I am aware of from an emotionally/verbally abusive step-father to an adult that...