Recent content by Ka-9

Welcome and my sincere empathies for the loss of your loved one. In my humble opinion, this site alone is not enough, no site would be. But along side therapy or professional help it can be a very useful tool and support system. Night's when you may be feeling too isolated, alone or confused...

Probably a release, but, the suicidal thoughts have creeper back in recently. I suppose I'm better aware at the very least, and maybe it won't he as often. ..who knows.

I'm now mentally petrified of my dog losses, I have 4 currently. If I don't stop myself at night, I'll suffer chest pain and anxiety attacks thinking about it. I simply have to stop the negative thoughts, I have to use the in this moment mentality, not think of tomorrow, not think of next...

Thanks Anthony, I've seen so many suicides over the years.. gives me a different hindsight appreciation now on why they might have done it.

Well, dozens lol....but every animal in the area just moves in...we're the it place. But yes I agred, I think survival tasks seem to be better than nothing. Repairs on house, animals, for me fitness, employment or school at least...all things towards being more secure or safe.

Welcome from way up North....this site to me, is like Google for ptsd.

Thanks Joey, excellent points.....never knew those factors. I thought it all seemed a little too easy. My biggest fear resides in the fact that I don't really recall consciously doing anything. But I'm much more vigilant now, I'll mention if I feel even the slightest bit concerned. But...

Thanks for reply shecat, I really appreciate the security that it can catch others off guard as well. I always told people over the 7 years before this that suicidal ideation were just normal? They just creep in like an insidious fog.... but I could shake myself out of it. This time I...

Im a wee bit perplexed actually, so I'd thought I'd see if anyone else had the same occur. About a month plus ago, I made a suicide attempt, but it was a really subconscious, almost robotic event. It wasn't a clear, conscious decision which is a bit worrying, but regardless, my wife never went...

For me...animals. 4 dogs, 4 horses, 2 pygmy goats,177 barn cats......I care about them more than myself... so it seriously helps. I also do my workout first thing in am. It I essential for my survival really, so I have motivation to get up. I totally crash around 3 or 4 pm, but I do what...

Welcome, glad you found your way here.

Welcome Bonbon, and my sincere empathies for the loss of your loved one in that manner. I attempted emdr and found it simply didn't work for me at all. Mind you I hid my condition for years in the cause setting, so the condition was deeply set. I've heard many others who had success with...

I gotta say, that's a tough spot. I suffer, my wife might as well (we were both military/ first responder etc) but she's way to stubborn to ever get help. We've had way ups....way downs....but so far 16 years along, we still have each other's backs. For what it may help, she went to the...

I'm a bit luckier in that my conditions were resulting from workplace, so that it would be illegal to fire me based on the shortcomings that resulted... I'm not certain, but if you have, or can get your condition verified by a doctor, is it possible to provide documentation and your sincere...

Welcome Eliza, terrible you had to witness such a thing, and as I write this I have the UK in my thoughts and prayers yet again. I hope you can get to a professional to assist you.... you deserve it. I wouldn't be too hard on yourself for following your bodies reaction....all that adrenaline...