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This is just f****ng horrible. I feel as i’m right back where I started & everything is happening all over again

I know this is a year old, almost exactly the same day as last year which is crazy. Anybody who posted on here feel like hearing me out? Clearly I'm back. So you all should know what this means :(

Hi guys, Time for my sob story update. The wedding was fine, he never showed up. But, the fact that it was open bar, everyone kept asking me where he was and my, anger - it got the best of me. I ended up texting him angrily after. I said "I am so f**king pissed off at you its not even funny...

Its been a while my loves! SO much has happened since I last posted, and the wedding is in 3 days!! He has used and abused and taken advantage of me a little more after the last time I wrote on here, and just last thursday I told him enough was enough and lost my chill. Hes texted me maybe 6...

I'm so hurt all over again. Its like when i see the calls or texts, i feel so empowered like YES I DID IT, i didnt answer or respond! But then later on, it hits me. Like right now, all i want to do it talk to him even when I know I shouldn't. I know it would make things harder for me and that...

I just looked through some. But my thing is if he is "protective" of people close to him, why the hell has he done what he has. & pushed me to where he has. I know I can't fully understand because I don't suffer from what he does, but it is just so confusing. Especially because he said he...

Hypervigilence? What exactly is that & what would that cause?

i feel like i sound like a broken record player, i’m sorry i keep bothering

Well, yesterday morning i woke up to two more missed calls at 6:30am and a text saying “just calling to see if you’re doing okay” ???? yes guys i know i should block him but there are actually things that don’t allow me to at this moment in time. i didn’t answer his calls nor did i respond to...

Just wanted to give a tiny update as i’m feeling so proud of myself today! I woke up to TEN MISSED CALLS from him, beginning at 5:30am up until 6:30am. Literally 10. Then i checked my texts and had a text from him saying “I’m drunk and i miss you” two hours pass and he goes to my mothers...

I'm reeling from the disappointment, and the feeling of being used too, B.J. You're not alone in this, I'm here for you. We deserve better and WE ARE BETTER. It'll take time to really believe that, but once we do, nobody will ever be able to take that away from us again.

I just went and re read almost this entire thread. You guys are my life savers. I come here when i'm feeling lost, and confused, uneasy and you all smack me back into reality. I'm honestly probably going to sound like a sap for this but i really wish I could meet all of you and hug you all...

ITS SO HARD to not feel pressured sometimes. Like I am expected to do something when it comes to him, and I simply just dont want to anymore. I feel, and as you all KNOW, that i've done all i can and have gone above and beyond. Probably even more than that. Im exhausted. I just want to have a...

AMEN. wow that explanation spoke life into me. I didn't think I was personally doing that, as far as basing things off him or his feelings, but i guess I am. Why should I be concerned with whether or not he is going, will be civil or not etc. I can only be concerned with myself and my...

Guys I just found out we're listed on the seating arrangements to be next to each other. I still shouldnt reach out and talk to him about it? I've never been in this situation i have no idea what to do. TRUST me, i want to not have to speak to him. But now im not so sure i shouldnt?