Recent content by Lone_Wolf

Well then, let me log back in here to do something worthy of a ban. How about you go f*ck yourself, little administrator who is probably ineffectual as f*ck in the real world, so starts up a site so he can regain the power he thinks he ought to have. I have an attitude now, but didn't before...

Seriously? I post something that's a stock photo and get a sternly-worded warning about it? Real nice in a PTSD forum. I'll save you the trouble of banning me if I slip up again. I won't be back.

I need to get my ass in gear each day, but can't. Content removed for potential copyright infringement. Contact Us for further assistance.

Just one so far. I could talk to the guy for hours if he let me. The response from the manager was on par with the attitudes I've received from others too. Things like, "It can't be that bad. At least you're not starving in Africa", "Stop dwelling on the negative", "You have to choose to be...

That's a challenge for me. I'm very reluctant to be vulnerable with people. Even when I admit my weaknesses, like with my P.T.S.D. to some co-workers, I couch it in terms of strength. Sort of like, "Yeah, I have P.T.S.D. but I keep marching forward." I'm very fearful that if I ever simply...

My snap judgements about people often turn out to be correct, but sometimes they're WAY off. I can't tell you how many times I've looked at someone I was introduced to and thought, "This guy is a f*****g douchebag," and it turned out to be bang on. On the other hand, I've been bitten by people...

No, no. It's fine. I know everyone has their triggers and I don't want to cause anyone here to feel bad in any way.

Fair enough.

For how long have you been aware you had P.T.S.D., if I may ask?

Thanks for your kind words. There are times when I enjoy being alone and doing my own thing, but there are times when the loneliness just steamrolls me. I wonder if I'll at least feel a little better when I get back to work.

I just wish it wasn't true. Maybe it's not and I can work out of this, but things aren't looking good in that respect.

Your last sentence brings to mind an interesting situation for me. You're correct that we should evaluate what is actually true versus what we perceive to be the case. The difficult part comes in trying to figure out what is actually true. Now the interesting part I referred to is the fact...

That's a good question, since I don't enjoy anything anymore. Everything is tainted for me by the ever-present background of life's futility.

People love to virtue signal about how they understand and have compassion for those afflicted with mental illness. It seems to be all talk. They either think you're exaggerating or faking (as if I wouldn't love to be "normal") or they think you're going to end up going on a killing spree or...

I have an immense problem trusting people. I often want to and, when I've tried, I end up feeling betrayed. This has burdened me for decades and I have no one to truly call a friend. I fear that, due to my advancing in years, I'll never have close friendships or even romantic interests. It's...