Recent content by Mosaic

@Silver. Hi, yes I removed it from my profile after I went on and checked what was visible. It was a status someone who left the company tagged me in. I have also since made it so that nothing anyone tags me in goes public, but he still would have seen it already.

So I had a huge back-step a couple of weeks ago. I stumbled across the fact that my abuser had unblocked me on facebook all of a sudden which sent me in to a complete panic.A colleague had tagged me in a public work post so he could see exactly where I work which worries me, plus all the...

@Justmehere i probably should've mentioned I'm not currently seeing my therapist. I finished my sessions months ago and was told if want to come back I can but have to go back on a waiting list. Any tips on grounding?

Ok so I haven't posted in ages but my entire experience with my PTSD has changed and now I'm stuck. I used to be mainly hypervigilent, anxious etc, I got a lot of flashbacks and intrusive thoughts. I was handling it all ok but my nights barrier was sex. When I knew my boyfriend was in the mood...

@Heather you did the right thing, people will always victim blame it's disgusting. Right now part of me is really wishing I could do something, say something. I feel like I'm about to implode. The truth is out there for you, it doesn't matter what people say

Hi guys, I'm determined to leave my current job plainly and simply because my boss is terrible. He's never been a manager before, he's opened a brand new business and he is pretentious, aggressive and can be a bully. I'm looking to leave the fitness industry and just personal train part time...

@Heather There are always going to be people that call you a liar, even if the whole thing was recorded and broadcasted, even if he admitted it, people would still victim blame. It makes it harder when you go to the police and nothing comes of it because everyone assumes that if you're telling...

I have stayed quiet about what happened to me, only my boyfriend, my best friend, my therapist and my Doctor know the truth which is unfortunately the case for many people who have been attacked. I have no intentions of 'outing' him, I am terrified of him and he made it clear that if I said...

Sorry to hear that, it sounds awful! I think a lot of people on here have felt "why me" including myself. I've often felt there must be a target on my back or a curse or I was someone really terrible in a past life to deserve it all. But we are moulded by everything good and bad that happens to...

@ghotiff thank you for reading what you could it says a lot about your own recovery that you tried whilst knowing its content.

@WillyKat I get the robot thing, mine's more smiling all the time and laughing and acting over-confident - at the same time trying to make out like I'm made of steel and nothing could hurt me. An old colleague asked me once if I can even cry because I give off such a strong faced impression...

@WillyKat it is exhausting having these thoughts because I don't want to die. I'll be going through day to day as normal, not thinking much of anything at all then all of a sudden it's just a moment of "I don't want to do this" despite that at that moment, I'm not even doing or thinking anything...

@FridayJones thank you, I didn't think about that with the triggers, I just haven't wrote much about it before and didn't like the idea of making someone feel upset but you're right, this is a thread on sexual assault in a PTSD forum. Strength to you also.

This is the first post I've talked about my assault, I feel like I need to. I have been seemingly doing really well lately on the outside but I know that doesn't bode well for whatever's going on in my subconscious, for one thing my nightmares have been coming back. I have my trauma written...

@halflifeguy i think giving up control is a big issue in sex. Even kissing beforehand I have to clench my teeth together and my fists. A couple of weeks I tried not having to give up control, not lying on my back, not having him over me and it really helped. I still rarely want to have sex but...