Recent content by Murakami

Great list, Abstract! Ty for giving this important theme such a careful thought:) Can you link to the healing thread you mentioned up top, please? I got interested. Reading it, I almost felt hit by a truck. Both cause it makes it painfully clear to me how far I have come on the path to healing...

Agree! It's like my own little mental prison just in case things are going well, I can always manage to doubt myself out of it. I believe it's called "negative self-talk" in psychology terms. Even when having a bad day and looking in the mirror and I see the distorted view. I can't stop it. If...

First off, ty for bringing this up, I felt terribly at home with too many of the descriptions above! Shortterm relief The strategies we instinctively use to survive our own families or trauma, are too often strategies we continue to use later on in life. And even more damaging, because we as...

Well, the leopard can't change it's spots. Good on you for standing up for yourself! Besides now you got a clear answer considering what kind of friend she wanna be. Watched second episode of Survivor yesterday, the reality castaway show. Very interesting to watch group dynamics. Someone...

Thank you for your answer! DBT? Sorry I'm newbie. Not familiar with all abbreviations:)

Oh, that's wacky comforting to know that I'm not alone experiencing this. It's so inexplicable sometimes, like after workout or having a meal or just totally unprovoked. 2 duvets not enough, electrical heat blanket needed too for up to hours to thaw.

Congrats on this! I'm still struggling. I'd love to hear more about how you did it, if you got time sometime and you wanna share. If you rather not, that's ok too:) I find it excruciatingly energy draining to stop myself every 2nd minute doing something I shouldn't do...

I do this all the time. I don't know why you do it, you should bring it up with your T. Keep asking yourself questions; do you do it only when bored or do you do it when upset as well, to keep your mind off what you don't wanna feel. How often do you do this? Do you do this to such an extent...

Muse, I understand completely. It's an option, to participate or not in the goddess treatment. It occurred someone said, I'm too sensitive today. I'm generally a person with big personal space... hanging out in alternative activities primed me for more intimacy, both physically and mentally in...

I'm sorry this is really a response from my introduction thread, but it seemed more relevant in this thread. https://www.myptsd.com/threads/how-to-heal-the-pain-that-is-buried-in-my-body.36958/ Healing session with guru I've had a couple of very intense episodes concerning body memories...

Oh, btw Wind Up Chronicle Bird was my insanity saviour during a particular rough patch. I also really loved Kafka On The Shore until it got too trippy, hehe. I'm about to finish audio of IQ84 now. You're welcome to let me know what you think of it, if you have time:) Inspired by your tip, I...

Agree, there are lots of things from 3-5 years, I will never know what happened, cuz I was with relatives, fosterhomes and children homes. My rational big sister personality is accepting this. I don't know if the inner child is. There was a very harsh separation with my birthmother, since she...

Well, takers do know how to target. I think its the healthy boundary thing. If you say "no" a couple of times, they seldom approach again. Depending on who and what situation it is, I sometimes say no to meet someone just to let them understand I'm not on 24/7 call for them. I'm also conscious...

This rang a bell to me. My adoptive mother uses guilt as a tool to get what she wants. In the more extreme cases it evolves into name-calling, where I'm "a bad, cold hearted, un-loving person". I think this has resulted in me avoiding people if they ask things from me and vice versa. I have no...

Agree! I'm such a sucker for underdog wins-narratives. The Lisbet character is almost perfect to release my feelings. She has suffered great injustice and abuse, but still finds ways to cleverly outmanoeuver her enemies. She is very vulnerable, yet never giving up... a survivor who uses what's...