Recent content by Nepheli

that's exactly how i feel. although, objectively it's a nice house, in the suburbs, with a nice garden etc i litteraly dislike it. i d like so much to move but financially it's out of the question. What is more my husband considers it to be his shelter. Often times i wonder whether another house...

Rabecca, i m speechless. Was your father mentally ill? What about your family? Your mom? where was she? i m really so sorry Rabecca. I absolutely respect you. i m sending you positive energy and wish you the best for the holidays

Lola, thank you so much for your kind words. So encouraging and touching. i m working in therapy on my self esteem and who knows, perhaps some day i ll write down my story on this forum. it might be a useful begining since i still deny any kind of journaling. Hugs

I was meaning "wouldn't start a diary"

I wish i was able to start a diary. i wish i could contribute to threads and support others. But i never will. why should i burden people with my mediocre english? So, once more i am an outsider as i always have been in my life. In my country there are only two depression forums of low...

justmehere, Yes, i ve read about the small children who were abandoned in hospitals during the WW2 and many of them finally died. Neglect is the worst physical abuse. i so sorry you had a similar experience as a child. Here in greece, there are kids, refugees from Syria who live unescorted as we...

7Cs, since both the biological and the foster parents were relatives, i had to fight not with two but with four mentally unstable people. i ve separated from the foster ones many years ago. they had emotionally and sexually abused me. However i went on chasing my real parents sympathy up to 6...

recoveringfrompts, abusive foster families, foster homes.... Only us who have being through such horrible situations actually know what it feels like. I ve been in therapy for many years and lately i ve started EMDR. Both my real and my foster families keep hurting me once in a while. I rarely...

I was given on adoption to relatives at my 9 yrs. My dad had all his long life been so immature and irresponsible that i wonder whether he had ever noticed that he was a father of three kids. Neglect is a kind of physical abuse. Right? Although i used to meet him for at least one week every year...

What i was trying to express above is that i wish i could have got rid of my hurt and anger at my neglectful parents. I also wish i was able to forgive them. I m so sorry but perhaps i ll never reach that level of spiritual maturity. What i absolutely believe is that it's not me but God...

I lived with my birth family up to my nine in an almost absolute neglect. No beatings, yelling or calling names but no love, affection, caring. After that i was given on adoption to relatives who went on with my mental and sexual abuse. All summers that followed i was sent by the adoptive ones...

Thanks hope and rosey. I ve been in so many different kinds of therapies over the past 20 yrs that not only am i afraid of EMDR, that is a new technique for me but i also dont know whether i can trust this new therapist i ll have the session with, on monday. My G.P recomended her to me. EMDR is...

I had been in therapy for over than 15 yrs and then i quit due to financial problems. In my country health insurances don't pay for mental therapies apart from meds. Lately my PTSD hit again and I thought of trying EMDR and brainspotting. My first appointment is scheduled for next week. In the...

Mal Content. You made me laugh loud with the goldfish! I m gona use it in my language! Thank you for your encouraging words. I keep reminding these to myself often times. I dont know why my subconscious doesn't get it. Anyway, after my vacation i ll do a research on EMRD practitioners in my city...

Mal content, hi! Thanks for the hug! However illogical and ridiculous it might sound, yes.. the 11 year old girl in me still feels guilt because what -against the law- happened to me was a sexual seduction. Never being loved by my psychopath real mother who in the end abandoned me, already...