Recent content by Nicole0317

Well my parents said that no ones aloud to go anywhere to anyone house and no ones aloud to come to our house until CPS comes and talks to us and launches their investigation because they don't want anyone finding out because they don't was to ruin my brothers reputation........ And I try to do...

Yea I have a therapist and I plan on talking to my youth pastor at church soon...but that's about it but I can't really distance myself from them and I love them to death I really do but I don't get how they just idk I finally get the courage to tell them and when I do that it Dosent seem like...

I feel very hopeless right now all my symptoms are just getting worse! Nothing is getting better! You know it really kills me that I don't think my parents beleive me...if you've read my latest posts then you know what I'm talking about. A poem: Hope Breeds Eternal Misery...

But yea I'm not suppose to be alone with him.....

My parents told me last week that they wernt going to leave me alone with him because it's not safe and because it scares the heck out of me but my parents are leaving me alone with him tmrw!!!! And im totally freaking out and scared out of my mind and yea I have my therapist comtact info but...

And great lets just add on too my big list of issues now tmrw mourning me and my brother are gonna be alone at my beach house for 7hours that mean I'm gonna be freaking and probably have a few panic attack too great sounds fun....no I'm scared out of my mind...

But thanks for trying oh and he is sleeping in a room 2feet away from mine so I'm scared as heck!!!

Nope I don't have a safe place eveeytime I think of one it only states safe for a few seconds and then somehow becomes terrifying and my brother is being so dang frustrating he's trying to act like he didn't r**** me how ever many times i don't even know just won't leave me alone ughhhhh I walk...

but thanks for replying but it Dosent help that my brother is here either...

I have really bad experiences with water so that Dosent make this any better...

Yea I do this all the time like I'm at the beach right now and this is totally ruining it and won't stop

So I was r**** a few years ago a few times and before that I was r**** once anyways sometimes it's like I can be sitting there in my bed and it's like I can look to the side and it's like I can see myself being raped again but as if I'm like idk watching it from a gallery or from someone else's...

:banghead: I reported it last week on Monday to my therapist and a close friend who is seeing the same therapist and the both of them reported to cps on Tuesday and my parents know about this obviouslsy and talked to my brother who is saying that he never did anything so I kind of regret saying...

Well I don't have a choice to talk to him and hang out with him at my house rather I like it or not my parents told me there is no logical reason to be scared of him at home but in my opinion I think I have every right to be scared of him.:bag::banghead::cry::nailbiting:

I'm not sure what ours in Texas I just know that i am not ready or wanting to talk to cps at all!