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    Sufferer Hi. My father tortured me in a cult, his parents molested me, every time I feel love for my kids it comes roaring back.

    Alas, no. *Any* counselling is beyond my financial ability, and although we have a putative "public" health system in this country, its ineptitude is matched only by its corruption. My abusers took full advantage of this. I successfully fought for justice after nearly two decades of wrong...
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    Sufferer Hi. My father tortured me in a cult, his parents molested me, every time I feel love for my kids it comes roaring back.

    :) I almost pulled the trigger on purchasing master Jiang Yu-Shan's lessons but I bought a plot of land in the mountains instead (which shows you how expensive they are!). He's the real deal, tho, and so is shifu Yan Lei, but Systema rings even truer to me than the Chinese methods, not to...
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    Sufferer Hi. My father tortured me in a cult, his parents molested me, every time I feel love for my kids it comes roaring back.

    Thanks MnM, I bought some books on Russian Systema last year. If these neverending lockdowns and curfews let up I would love to attend in-person lessons, I really admire Mikhail Ryabko and want to learn from his students.
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    Sufferer Hi. My father tortured me in a cult, his parents molested me, every time I feel love for my kids it comes roaring back.

    Thank you Arfie, really, thank you. The system has not been kind when I sought help. Misdiagnosed as bipolar for nearly two decades despite never meeting DSM criteria for manic episodes, I was just looking for relief from the suicidal thoughts that had harassed me since kindergarten. Never...
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    Sufferer Hi. My father tortured me in a cult, his parents molested me, every time I feel love for my kids it comes roaring back.

    Thank you for the kind words. My kids are my world, the juxtaposition of present joy and past trauma is such a messy thing. For the past few years I have also had to deal with steadily worsening chronic pain from my Hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, and pain is a massive trigger. Keeping...
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    Sufferer Hi. My father tortured me in a cult, his parents molested me, every time I feel love for my kids it comes roaring back.

    I was born into a long line of apocalyptic cult abusers, fifth generation, but I broke the cycle. Left the cult, married my wife, am raising two amazing toddlers, completely cut my abusive family out of my life. And yet. My son adores me. Every morning it's huge hugs and "DADDY!" and my...
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