Recent content by not again

Thank you everyone. Even though sometimes it was difficult i still miss him so much.

I saw a counselor once. I think i will start going to suicide support group. I am plagued with what ifs. Its 2 hours away to the nearest group. I'm thinking it might be worth the trip.

He committed suicide on October 2, 2014. He drove my blazer head on into a semi truck. He started drinking more. It got really bad. We finally talked about it. He stopped drinking for 2 days. I got to spend those 2 days with the man i loved. I don't feel like retelling the story of that night.

You are very right nurse. I never thought that being a strong and intelligent woman I would find myself here. And nicollette, exactly!!! Men are sometimes pigs PTSD or not. That's been bugging me a lil bit....or maybe a whole freakin lot!!!

Communication is what I am struggling with now. If I try and fail then I just shut down and my house gets really clean. My friends tell me I'm the strongest person they know. That's why I understand PTSD. I know that if at any point I could find the exit...I would be running for it yelling...

Thank you. I think I know what I need to do for now. I feel like we are 2 chameleons living in a very small tank. Each of us have moods and we seem to get stuck in a bad rut. I guess it's up to me to change my color. You gave me a boost! He really is a good person. We have both been through so...

He has been through lots of therapy. He wasn't in a war. Its from a car accident at 14. He also had an incident where he was chased and shot at guys. He went to juvenile center over that. I understand it won't go away. I'm just venting. I have nobody to talk to. He ran everybody off and trying...

I have been with my bf who has PTSD for over a year now. He told me about it in the beginning. We met online and didn't actually meet in person for a couple of months. At first I thought this guy is a weirdo but he is really funny, He is a Christian, very good looking . Our first date I fell in...