Noxyoursox

I am asexual (sex-repulsed), aromantic, and transgender ("they, them" pronouns). I served in the US Army as a Mandarin Chinese Linguist for about 2 years, but was diagnosed with a "social phobia" and sent home after telling a councelor I was having suicidal thoughts. I have chronic pain due to a series of related injuries in my knees, ankles, and hip which occured while I was in the Army and never really healed. My parents divorced when I was 8 years old and both ended up in extremely toxic relationships, including one which involved me being pretty much trapped with my dad's abusive boss/ex-girlfriend for about 6 months. I have three siblings who are all much worse off than me, including one who is 8 years old. I currently share an apartment with two roommates on a college campus.

I have regular panic attacks, and occasional flashbacks and nightmares, but have never been diagnosed with PTSD (although several different people have said what I described to them sounded like that, and looking up stuff about it online I am inclined to agree). I become very anxious and quickly worn out in social situations, especially if I am put on the spot in a conversation or there are a lot of people. I also get "sensory overload" if too many things (or certain specific triggers) are going on. I am often depressed and sometimes suicidal. I have been diagnosed with ADHD and fit a lot of the symptoms of asperger's syndrome/high level functioning autism, so it is difficult to distinguish between what is the result of those things and what comes from PTSD (if there is even any value in making such a distinction).