Recent content by OptimisticRealist

Thanks for the input, hopefully the good vibes I got from the therapist carry over into treatment. She seemed both pragmatic and compassionate, so I guess I'll just cross my fingers that my experience is beneficial? Idk, I'm still pissed that this is even a thing for me. Haven't made it to the...

Sorry @joeylittle , I've had people very close to me invalidate my experiences that contributed to where I am now, so I'm hyper-sensitive about calling what I have ptsd without an evaluation. Thanks for your responses and input ?

@joeylittle. Yes, I did my research on her before making an appt. She's a PhD'd psychotherapist with 10 years experience, 6 of which were exclusively treating PTSD. I research EVERYTHING, whether it's for fun or in this case, for my ability to function as normally as possible again. Again, I'm...

I asked my new therapist for a formal evaluation to make sure what I'm experiencing is PTSD, and if it is she specializes in CPT. Anyone here have experience with this? She (new t) said it's pretty brutal and I prob won't like her very much some days lol. But anything is better than what I...

@lil_fighter. Thank you so much. That is exactly what I needed to hear this morning. ?

I just read this again and chuckled out loud. Def needed that this morning ?

@anthony. I know where you're coming from, and I mostly agree. The situation isn't healthy and I've got sh*t to do every day that I have to be functional for, which is why I'm focusing on me right now. That's all I have control over anyway. And @mumstheword. Thank you for the input, again ...

@anthony I'm 41, no worries for asking, I've earned every one of these years lol. I'm getting a full eval done next month just to make sure it's actually ptsd, I'm not a doctor, just too many checked boxes in my opinion to be anything else. Logically, I know there was nothing more I could have...

I witnessed her being abused multiple times but froze. Didn't do anything. She was too afraid to be by herself so I stayed at her apartment with her, but he took the keys and would come in all hours of the night and pull her off the couch to force her to talk to him. I would hear her crying...

I think the thread title pretty much sums it up, but things are ROUGH right now. Gf has C-PTSD and has been highly symptomatic and disregulated for weeks. She says that I'm a different person and that she doesn't like who I am now compared with when we were "just friends". We're not speaking...

When you MUST SEE THE DRIVER of every silver Kia Sol on the road, every time. When you obsess over what happened even though you know you shouldn't. When you startle if someone walks up behind you quietly. When you try to make a new psych appt but get relieved when it's past office hours so you...

Lol thanks @Gwaihir I'll def take it ?

I need a hug because life is really over-whelming right now and I need to cry about it, but it's hard for me to let my guard down. A long hug from someone I trust always breaks through that so I can let it out. Hugs to everyone else who needs them ❤

Thanks everybody for responding. @Ronin I've found a very qualified psychotherapist who has dealt exclusively with ptsd for 10 years, but can't get my gf to entertain a new therapist at this point in time. Keeping it in my pocket for after this episode passes. @Freida Thank you for that insight...

My routine right now is give her space, no one has ever respected her boundaries or accepted what she is or is not capable of at times. Taking care of me is my priority, and trying to trust and have faith that we'll be back to our version of normal when the dust settles. She's too numb and...