overwhelmedbyptsd

I have ptsd for many years now. I look fine and I am friendly but I am always looking over my shoulder . I have been raped more than once and I have a fear . I have therapy once and a while and I do have panic attacks. I recently saw some old photos and it opened up a lot of bad feelings and memories and I have developed back pain that won't go away now and it has been 3 weeks now. I don't know why I did. My husband says that I never made amends with my self and my past. I have been in therapy for many years and to have this all of a sudden I feel really crappy and my esteem is low now. I feel like a failure. All that therapy was for nothing or what?