Recent content by PaintedTurtle

I was raised with a Pagan family on one side and Native on the other. I consider myself a Theosophist, for lack of a better fit. I think each belief holds thousands of years of a focused on concept by a group of people who through the years become experts on that topic and in the end we...

If something triggers me back into shock I will hear them as though they are very far away and I can answer them in my mind, but cannot make my voice or mouth respond to them. My T says it's shock. Shock can cause that type of response and so can fight, flight, or freeze and can be a freeze...

After losing my father at 15 and watching my mother go through what you are going through and knowing what it's like to have a toxic family and not much family left, my mother and I discovered a couple of things. Some of it is comforting and some of it is just the way it is. 1.We are very lucky...

I don't think that's it. I think my needs are greater and so it can FEEL like that. Everyone has a different capacity for compassion, love etc. I have had to learn to match my capacity to others (so I'd stop being put in a situation to be victimized) and weed out those who aren't able to give...

I was misdiagnosed with depression and anxiety for 20 years. Even after they knew I'd witnessed murders. The system is scary. I finally got lucky and won the Therapist lotto (found someone who knew what to h*** they were doing) and I am finally feeling like I might actually get a grip on this in...

Can happen to anyobe Yes. I have Autism.

What is there to explain? I was born with Autism and ADHD. I suffered multiple traumatic events and now I have PTSD.

A parent's job is to protect. BOTH parents are responsible for this. So both are to blame.

I swear by my EMDR treatments.

I don't know if "resting" is the right word for it. I am clinically disabled.

I use Native medicine. It's part of my culture and it works better. Sweatlodge. Smudging (cedar, tobacco, sage, sweetgrass), meditating (I learned this from a Buddhist friend). Sweet grass tea can help with not sleeping especially if you take melatonin with it. St. John's wart helps but can...

I have found that sharing only creates a reliving situation. You can also traumatised others with your trauma, so I tend to avoid sharing. I get greater resiliency from EMDR treatments than anything else I have tried. I highly suggest it.

Oh... I should probably mention that my therapist did pinpoint this as a trigger from a serious traumatic event.

Red light causes me to feel like I am drowning. Then I have tunnel vision for a second and I pass out. I wake up on the floor after only a few moments. I discovered this happens to me after our curtain rod got destroyed by our cat and my gf temporarily hung a red blanket over it. When the sun...