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Plat-Daddy
Dealing with my PTSD I try to stay busy when around others. When around family I make short visits here and there and of course dinner if I am there. They are convinced I am just working or thinking about the next project. I was blessed to have been known by some retired pilots of old with some great skills. And they were heavy into muscle cars. I started hanging around these guys when about 15 yrs of age. And would pop in and see them when on leave. There were 2 generations difference in age but were my friends even though salty old grumpy dudes it was well worth it. I now am in a wheel chair most of the time but with leg braces can walk some. Enough on good days to get on my motorcycle and ride. Riding is easy. Walking to pay for gas and back into the house well not so much. The skills I have from the short timers is a gift for I focus allot on building things.
I beat the crap out of a body bag when stressed. This seems to relieve the pinned up emotion also. And once tired as could be I sleep with lesser or no dreams. I do take meds that help in staying calm. Remember if you need them for a while to allow the chemicals in your brain to adjust or catch up YOU ARE NOT DEFECTIVE. I am a very angry person yet most do not ever see it. I am mad at life, I have family who are the elites yet I am not so I see both sides. I have multiple communication MOS's thus understood many of the coms trans and rec abroad. For God and Country became a want to believe instead of my driving force. I am so grateful for the meds now. At first I was not for they were way to strong for a while yet I am tested regularly and if not on them I lose my freedom. After many doctor changes and finally finding one who will ask how you feel and listen I am on the right meds and a 1/4 of the dose taken for a long time. I like them now for able to function around others in public without becoming combative at the smallest discretion. Its help me now by offering idea to others in need. I have to pay pack the past and pay forward what I can by helping young people who see no future for having POS parents. I must save the kids as much as I can. If you have been there then you understand. If you do not understand then never ask for it is not explainable. My blessings are even though so busted up I blend foods to be able to eat. Even though my joints are gone, Even though half deaf and the constant pain of the lightning bolts through the body from the multiple injuries I finally am back glad to be alive. The Army gave me a home where my extreme anger from childhood could be controlled. My greatest moments were my son who saved my life by showing me what Love is for the first time in my life. My daughter 20 years later for holding me through the grief of losing my cherished son. My wife for always willing to walk up and just hold me no matter what the days brings out of me. The kids that welcome learning my trade skills. Remembering all my brothers thus honoring them so nothing was ever in vain. I owe my success in everything to God and John O Marsh for taking a chance on us trouble makers. God Bless Us All And Show No Mercy On Those Who Hurt Kids.
I beat the crap out of a body bag when stressed. This seems to relieve the pinned up emotion also. And once tired as could be I sleep with lesser or no dreams. I do take meds that help in staying calm. Remember if you need them for a while to allow the chemicals in your brain to adjust or catch up YOU ARE NOT DEFECTIVE. I am a very angry person yet most do not ever see it. I am mad at life, I have family who are the elites yet I am not so I see both sides. I have multiple communication MOS's thus understood many of the coms trans and rec abroad. For God and Country became a want to believe instead of my driving force. I am so grateful for the meds now. At first I was not for they were way to strong for a while yet I am tested regularly and if not on them I lose my freedom. After many doctor changes and finally finding one who will ask how you feel and listen I am on the right meds and a 1/4 of the dose taken for a long time. I like them now for able to function around others in public without becoming combative at the smallest discretion. Its help me now by offering idea to others in need. I have to pay pack the past and pay forward what I can by helping young people who see no future for having POS parents. I must save the kids as much as I can. If you have been there then you understand. If you do not understand then never ask for it is not explainable. My blessings are even though so busted up I blend foods to be able to eat. Even though my joints are gone, Even though half deaf and the constant pain of the lightning bolts through the body from the multiple injuries I finally am back glad to be alive. The Army gave me a home where my extreme anger from childhood could be controlled. My greatest moments were my son who saved my life by showing me what Love is for the first time in my life. My daughter 20 years later for holding me through the grief of losing my cherished son. My wife for always willing to walk up and just hold me no matter what the days brings out of me. The kids that welcome learning my trade skills. Remembering all my brothers thus honoring them so nothing was ever in vain. I owe my success in everything to God and John O Marsh for taking a chance on us trouble makers. God Bless Us All And Show No Mercy On Those Who Hurt Kids.