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I wasn't sexually active as a child. I was never told to keep it a secret. I just saw a couple penises when I wasn't expecting it that's all. I don't see how therapy can help with that bc I can't unsee it now and I don't understand why it would affect me so much. Maybe I just have control issues...

The reason I find it very difficult to accept is bc when I tell my friends what happened, they all say the same thing... It happens to all girls, I was molested 50 times, when I was six this happened to me or that happened to me.. It's not a big deal so don't let it affect you. When you think...

why was it helpful though? what part of it? what could the therapist say as an example to make it helpful?

I fail to see how talking about sex in therapy can help. It would just make me feel very awkward. I feel a therapist will just tell me what my dad did was wrong, but they won't be able to give me a good experience. I'm failing to see how therapy is helpful.

No I haven't even talked about it with a therapist. I've met someone who seems to be very considerate sexually. He is ok with taking steps, breaks and being a soft place to land on so to speak. He is even ok with not having genital sex for a while if it's triggering. I don't know if I believe...

dear myptsd i've found dating with a history of sexual abuse extremely hard. mainly because the relationship commonly cannot survive it. it takes super human amounts of patience, understanding and emotional support for your partner to handle all your issues around sex when they are getting to...

I'm in the process of finding a therapist. Omg what you describe about pretending to be little... I do the exact same thing online and it is totally like a drug. I don't feel alive unless I can feel like I'm little and being exploited. Im also sure having a strict mother and being raised in a...

Can you conclude that you were sexually abused if you have fantasies like that? Or can non traumatized ppl have thoughts like mine too. I'm basically trying to prove to myself that I was abused bc I can't believe it.

Does it talk about CSA specifically? I feel like keeping the abuse alive by doing these things to connect with that part of myself. Otherwise I feel disconnected and dead.

No. Too many bad experiences so I'm taking my time picking out the right t

I posted a similar thread in which I questioned whether a father masturbating in front of a child was considereed sexual abuse, if there was invitation for the child to participate I'm still trying to sort that out for myself but my follow up question is: if smth like that is your first sexual...

Whose job is it?

Thank you so much for sharing sweetpainfulloving. It's clear for me to see from what you described that you were abused. mainly because you were touched and fondled and also because it happened multiple times. I feel ambivalent about what happened because if any boundaries were crossed, they...

I'm not sayingi it's good or normal. Im just saying it FEELS normal to me and I don't understand why

This is the part u lose me. Why is it abusive?on some level I know it is but deep down it feels normal