Recent content by PTSDsucks1227

On the more hiphop side joe buddens " whatever it takes" really good song

I've realized that there a lot of unresolved issues here the fact that I feel guilt and hurt for what ever the situation is with my brother all these years later .. And I realize I feel this way only when I'm feeling sad however I am planning on seeing a therapist soon .. I am feeling better...

So I've begun looking into seeing a therapist because even though I get a sense of what's happening it's still overwhelming and scary hopefully I can sit down and just let it all out

I don't know if this attributes to anything but I have been in and out of the hospital almost everyday for the past two weeks my uncle was severely injured in a motorcycle accident and now come to think of it the suicide attempt did happen around the fall time but I agree maybe seeing a...

I honestly don't know why it bothers me so much I thought I was over it but the hopeless thoughts anxiety started happening recently again before I was able to brush it off but it's bothering me again and when it does i feel like it completely warps me like I'm not myself

Well a year prior to that happening I did walk in to my dads botched suicide attempt the doctor explained to me that I had been dealing with depression for a long time and that my " cup" simply over flowed with the situation about my brothers phone but he determined it was some sort of traumatic...

Yes ridiculous I know but that's what the doctor told me at the hospital whatever it was it messed me up pretty bad and for whatever reason the same way I felt then is starting to come back and I have no idea why now this was my little brother he was 16 at the time

They were of teen boys and I believe I was 20 it was def some sort of pornography

So summer of 2008 I stumbled upon my little brothers phone and being the nosy person I was I decided to look through it . I was in complete shock when I saw graphic images of boys having sex with each other so not only was I in shock to see these images I was in shock to find them on my brothers...