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I have the same problem. I fluctuate from mildly dissociated and still able to talk (but foggy & numb) to completely checked out, vacant and absent. When I totally depart I often lose track of the conversation and have to be reminded what we were talking about. I tried mindfulness but like...

I found couples therapy helped us. I had always been terrified of being honest about how I felt but I couldn't tolerate any physical or emotional intimacy when I was feeling anxious- or having a bad day. Not explaining this to my partner meant that I was often left me feeling even more anxious...

It certainly does for me.

I was just about to post a similar topic. I find relaxation classes, yoga, and mindfulness sessions unbearable. Attempts to relax like that, especially in the company of others, result in feelings of extreme vulnerability and panic or dissociation. I feel as though if I relax, I will no longer...

I take seroquel and have this diagnosis. I can't say it really reduces SI as I have overdosed on it (in combination with other things) more than once trying to commit suicide. I do think it helps to control crippling psychological states that gave me SI, but it is not the answer all by itself.

At my worst I took 900mg per day, plus solian, and an antidepressant in high doses. I took about half of it at night and the rest throughout the day to control crippling anxiety, panic attacks etc. without it, I didn't sleep. On it, I would have strange nightmares if I tried to sleep/nap during...

I can identify with what you are going through. My therapist and I don't know how much I have repressed but I know I have been seeing more and more of what happened to me as I slowly unpack it in therapy. My flashbacks have included more detail than I was aware of, and much of it is much more...

Your description sounds very like what I experience, almost every session in therapy. I am not able to connect with feelings or even images associated with my trauma without dissociating. My therapist has me rate my dissociation on a scale of 1-10 because I am always somewhere on the spectrum...

I do it every session. I can't stand to be present it seems. It is protective but I am not sure it is productive.

I dissociate through most of my therapy sessions. Lately he has asked me to rate how "present" I am at various times. 10 being fully here and now and 0 being as fully dissociated as possible-- though if I were that far gone I am sure I wouldn't hear him ask the question! I have been in therapy...

It can be pleasant- in the sense that it is like a holiday from pain & fear, and to me it can feel like a warm cocoon sometimes. The best thing is I can get relief from physical pain too- very useful when in labour!

Hi. I don't really know where to begin. I have suffered from anxiety & depression since my teens, and finally got the courage to seek treatment at 21, when my life started to fall apart- like I had been carrying everything too long on my own. So I fell out of reality- started on intensive...

When you really need it (if you do) hospital isn't such a bad place. I have had 11 voluntary admissions. It can be a true "asylum" a safe place to be when you need help to stay safe. I know I often feel embarrassed telling my P-doc about wanting to self harm or feeling suicidal but if I can't...