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When you had an emotionally exhausting day because of tons of memories and emotions coming up. Your boyfriend comes home finding you in tears. To comfort you he says that he loves you and that you are the most beautiful creation that ever existed on the face of the earth. And all you feel as a...

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@BrainScars4life Hi! And welcome :) Im not a big fan of the word comlpex. Its just so complex! But great that you have started therapy with a traumaspecialist. Hope you'll make progress in opening up and staying present. Its really difficult! But let it take the time it needs and dont beat...

Just my thoughts based on my experiences... Ive always been really sleepy. And for me its a result of dissociation. Its a way for my psyche to avoid feelings and memories etc. Also it takes a mot of energy carrying a heavy load of unprocessed trauma and emotions. Also the dizzy-spells that you...

@jaccat I can so relate to your issues. For me beeing tired is a major trigger! And the more tired I get, the more my psyche battles to stay alert. Wich is quite unfortunate and really debilitating. Since beeing tired is the bodys signal that it really needs rest to be able to carry on. And...

yep, know that feeling!! And the worst thing it keeps happening over and over again. Until its all processed. Ha ha. Yes indeed! Refusing to listen, wanting to go our own way and not beeing boring like everyone else I do wish I had payed stelast some attention! But I guess we were standing...

I belive we were standing next to eachother in that queue!!!! Well written! I can so relate and its like I wrote it all my self.

Rage!!! A bit scared of my self really. Im not an angry person. Or, I am angry. Like, blow something up, smash someone angry. And everyone gets angry from time to time. Thats just human. Its just that anger has been associated with so much shame that Ive made up the picture of my self that Im...

I was really struggeling at first in EMDR. Just "seeing pictures" but not beeing able to access the feelings associated to them. It was way to scary! I got the feeling that if I did I was going to die. Also I felt that it was to lonely in a way. Sittning there just looking att a finger wawing...

That is a description of me in therapy for the last twelve years! So frustrating! And I used to hate my self for it! Wanting to talk but then in the office, totally mute. Not a word! Once or twice a week for years and years and years. And needless to say, therapy didnt do much part from making...

I do Emdr twice a week. It is intense always beeing in the process. But it is also good since we emediatley pick up and work on what comes up after one session. And honestly its more intense in a scary way not doing it. At least now I know Im doing something constructive that is taking me closer...