Recent content by Redlewis

I had a flashback when driving which caused me to lose concentration. Went through red lights and crashed car. Never driven since.

Hope you're feeling better today

That's the way. One tiny step at a time. Sending a hug

How did you go during the night? Hope you were ok. You're lucky to have your family's love around you. That means a lot.

just been given citalopram. Bit worried about taking them. Have low mood, flashbacks, insomnia, etc. Any advice?

I can relate to this. In therapy this week I threw up because of a memory of when I tried to kill myself and my abuser forced me to be sick. It felt like he was forcing me to be sick again even though it's years since that happened.

Hi I feel exactly like you. Be brave. It'll help to write it and tell someone x

Mine wasn't done in a clinic and I ended up being told I would never have kids cos of the damage. We adopted my daughter but after 12 yrs of marriage I somehow became pregnant and we have our son now too. When I was 15 I spent a lot of time with my baby brother- people said I was like his second...

the waiting list for free counselling is six months minimum so I have paid for this as can't wait that long

No as she was provided through adoption support

I am having some counselling

I have been suppressing memories of the abuse and loss for many years and have only recently been hit by the full impact of them when one of my abusers died a month ago.

That's what I thought. Need to find someone else

Yes I told her

After 3 yrs of serious abuse I was pregnant at 15. My abusers made me have an abortion. They paid someone to do it so I didn't go to a proper clinic. I have recently been grieving v badly for my baby. More than usual. Don't know what to do. Loss is too great. I've had two children and 3...