Recent content by Rudolf

Thank you for writing that you had heard of it. So I'm going to try working out with this girl after all. It might help me. Since I'm being retraumatized by classical treatment (EMDR, and other trauma immersions), I'll try nonclassical treatment for now. Either way, I can always go back to...

Hi Guys, still looking for a therapist, found several trauma focused cognitive behavioral therapy specialists, and 1 other woman responded, she is a gestalt therapist and has been treated herself, now does shamanic practices and theta healing. Tell me what anyone thinks? if i have traditionally...

Thank you so much for your help, I really appreciate the help now as I am lost. And hopefully in time I will get out of the woods. Right now I am avoiding finding a therapist, probably not enough strength, or avoiding for lack of inner resources. I looked at the website you posted, unfortunately...

No, I don't physically hurt myself. I meant that I sometimes feel in danger of my mother and brother suddenly invading my life again, as before. Now my goal is to find a new therapist, I don't know which one yet, but it's obviously not EMDR. Or cognitive behavioral psychotherapy or something...

Thank you all for your answers, and for your help. I must add that really I am not safe now, I constantly feel threatened, animal terror, even at home. And this threat I began to feel after retraumatization, after trying to work through traumas related to my mother. Now I am terrified of my...

There is IFS in the schema therapy if I am not mistaken. But unfortunately it didn't help me, I can't feel my parts at all, including protection(detached protector), I can't talk to them, as I don't feel anything, and I don't understand how people make up these parts, including the inner child...

About the medication, Propranololol takes away my dissociation, smells, feelings, and liveliness appear. And also 0.5 of phenazepam also makes me more alive.

@joeylittle I'm from Russia

I've heard someone say that when there are a lot of injuries, it's better not to touch them at all. Could this be the case in my case? I shouldn't have even touched it. My mother told me that I had something mental happen in my early childhood that my legs stopped working abruptly and I stopped...

@ Survivor3 It's great that you were able to progress. Maybe you found your therapist and the methods that helped you. Unfortunately, I can't go back to sports, my condition is completely different, but I sometimes try to do at least some exercises at home.

Hi @ruborcoraxxx many therapists now don't understand why my therapist did this either, it's been 1.5 years since my last attempt at trauma work, but alas, neither dissociation has decreased, nor tastes have returned, nor smells, movies and music are the same. But I am wondering if I can go...

It helped me a lot that I found this forum, I constantly make sure that I am not alone in the world.

The only family I have left alive is my mother, we call her once a month, but she activates my wounded part. And in general, she doesn't understand me very well. After trying to work through the traumas involving her, she now makes me feel terribly threatened. And in general, after these...

Hi @Survivor3 how old are you now? Have you been looking for a healing path for a long time? The thing is, I generally come from a very dysfunctional family, and on top of that at age 17, a couple of months apart, I got beaten up by a bunch of people 2 times. And after that I was cut off from...

Thanks guys for the answers, I'm just very lost in treatment right now, and in my journey in general. And yes, I'm often going to die, as I believe I can't be cured, and I can't live like this, it's life in hell. But I keep fighting. I haven't taken pills for a year now because I'm not good with...