Recent content by Samyd66

I lost my wife because of my PTSD - she didn't know. She wasn't willing to tolerate my isolation and my unwillingness to talk. She was my world, my partner. I lost her and now I am alone. What makes it worse is that I am in the mental health field. I failed my wife and I am broken, just like...

Thanks again. Two weeks ago I tried to kill myself. I ended up in the hospital. It was a wake up call for me, but I am still struggling. I've done so much to try and heal. It's just not enough. Now I am trying to dig deeper. I am not ashamed of what I am dealing with, but I am ashamed of what I...

Thank you. Emotionally I am numb. I am getting treatment, but I am struggling. I came here as an effort to heal. I am not looking for sympathy, as you probably know... I don't even know why I just said that, but that's part of who I am. I am conflicted with myself. Part of me wants to be left...

I know what, where, and why..yet I am frozen - I have been abused, molested, shot at, hit over the head with a shotgun, was in a devastating car accident, and have a spinal cord injury. How does one recover from all that?? - I've been trying, but it's a struggle.