Recent content by Sarah_Rose

@FridayJones that is something I totally relate too. It makes me feel better that someone has the same rage as I do.

@Seagreen I personally don't believe in karma either. But my family is always trying to tell me it is real and that she will get hers. I disagree completely. I don't think any real option could make me more comfortable seeing her. I only think I could be comfortable seeing her if I knew she...

I feel guilt a lot. I feel as though I make my loved ones lives more difficult. I feel like I have some type of disability. I feel like I cause complications for almost everyone I meet. Even though I know I am doing so much better than I use to be, I still feel like I'm this huge burden. I feel...

Yesterday was Thanksgiving and my family had dinner at our house with just my brother, his girlfriend, my mom and dad and of course me. One of my uncles lives next door and he decided to have thanksgiving at his house as well but with a bunch of our other family members. We don't go only because...

@Solara, I am so sorry to hear that!!! I hope your dreams stop soon!

@Namenotdiagnosis yes I have told most of my partners! They have reacted well for the most part. Thank you very much for your kind words!

That is without a doubt sexual assault. You said no, you did not EVER say yes, not a single part of you agreed to do that. We all get awkward, uncomfortable and don't know how to handle it when it is happening. I was abused for years and never verbally said yes. But I was a child and I never did...

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@Bickslow That really does sound horrible, I can imagine how much that upsets you. I am sorry you are having dreams like that. So would you say most of your dreams are about that one, and related to your abuse? I hope you find some peace.

I suffer from really bad nightmares, that my psychiatrist says are from my PTSD. Well, half of my nightmares are clearly about the abuse, but the other half tend to just be random horrific things. I keep having a reoccurring dream where I am in a one on one fight (my opponent changes) and we are...

Yes, I do agree with you that it should be involved in your therapy. My abuser was without a doubt a sociopath. She sexually abused me over and over, started making jokes about the incest to my face, she would call me fat and encourage me to use extreme dieting methods, then she got sick of...

Sometimes I just let myself feel the anger. Sometimes it does help me to remember that I never wanted any of this, I never chose the abuse and that I do hate this lifestyle. I try not to let it totally overwhelm me, which can be very hard. But I don't necessarily think anger has to be a bad...

What usually helps me get out of bed is I know that if I don't, I often get worse. I am a college student, so if I didn't get out of bed I would be missing classes, which would make me fall behind and that would only stress me out more and make me worse overall. So I just remember, get up, go to...

Yes it is considered a disability! I don't know what you ended up deciding to do, but here is what I did. I just started university as well. For the first few weeks I did not tell the school and tried to handle it on my own. It did not seem to go well. So I did ultimately end up taking to the...

Whenever I have a really difficult session, I usually try to hangout with a friend or loved one who knows about my past and can kind of "watch" me. I usually have my best friend hangout with me and he lets me talk about whatever is on my mind or he will happily distract me.