Recent content by shadesofgreen

I am so proud and happy for you! I have found that walking the trail near my apartment, as many times as I need to, helps my anxiety.

I am trying my best to move on. I am having a bad day. I had to call my therapist because I had a breakdown and just lost my ish. The manic government posts continue with my PTSD ex. He spent all day on FB having a discussion with himself. It's scary, and I've been informed that nothing can be...

I have to move on. What other choice do I have? I'm not wasting my life waiting for a meltdown, a breakup, or a marriage that's not with me. He made his decision, I respect that, and I am on my way to my own.

OMG The need to plan! I have that so bad. I am going to work on it with my therapist; it was one of the first things he noticed about me. My exSgt has put my entire life in a jumble. I had planned to move to him next year and restart my entire career with him. I was that in love that I would...

When I said it, I meant that I was unconditional. Whatever came forward, we would be able to face as a team. Because I believe in him, I trusted him, and I had faith we were both looking for the best in each other.

Shadesofgreen is the Disney resort where he planned to propose to me.

I am moving on, trying to take care of myself. But he'll stay in my phone ... just in case that breakdown happens. I feel like a bad person rooting for it because I think that's the only way he'll get help. Otherwise, his life with be a PTSD purgatory.

He has had a complete personality change since he called me crying and suicidal. I have to accept the fact that the man that I loved doesn't exist anymore.

I think I just need support and friends right now. He is 100% with the new girl. I guess the "take a break" turned into full on breakup when I wasn't looking - he didn't even address this with me. It's like I never existed. I can't do anything about that but let go of our love and plans. That...

Thank you @VoiceOfReason and @Peach ... I need to get myself in check now so I can move on. I feel like no matter what I do these next few days, I can almost guarantee he will circle back, and I need to be strong enough to avoid that.

This keeps getting more horrifying for me. He took her on the business trip with him! He's plastering this everywhere - my mind has run amuck, but clearly he isn't interested in pursuing our relationship like that. No, I don't have proof, and my gut instinct is actually that he is such a mess he...

I reacted to the conversation I had with him and had sent him a book that he loved from his childhood, a tie for his new job, and a really sweet card. And then I saw the pics ... so I think I feel like a double fool and I greatly appreciate all the support. I'm very glad you found him a...

@Peach That's exactly how I'm feeling. I can't stress enough that I'm willing to work with him. I'm hoping for the best but anticipating the worst. Not hearing back from him is the worst this time. I'm afraid he won't come around at all.

It's two pictures. And I think that I'm more upset because I felt duped by the previous conversation I had with him. Needless to say, I went to my first therapy session last night and got some good advice. I made it a point to reach out to my vet and let him know that I wanted to discuss - I...

I am flabbergasted that I am posting this, but those Facebook photos of him and this girl keep appearing. I finally - after about two weeks of waiting to see if he'd address it with me - texted him the photo and asked for an explanation. I didn't accuse him of cheating. I didn't come off snarky...