Recent content by Shasta'sJourney

I'm in the same boat. My T says that I have parts though. One thing that helps me keep from freaking out (too much) is remembering that it's all on a continuum, with "everyone has parts" on one end and DID on the other. We're not sure exactly where I fall, but the same treatment principles apply...

One more thing, I often have the feeling that I'm bouncing from one idea to another so fast that I can't hang on to any of it. It's like I have several different opinions at the same time, and it get's really overwhelming. I'm also the artistic type, so maybe it's just related to that?

Thanks for the replies. Interestingly enough, I just now read the article on the home page https://www.myptsd.com/threads/post-traumatic-memory.84694/. It talks about the power of suggestion. Now I'm even more confused. I definitely read about some of this stuff on the internet before. Maybe I...

My T says that I have dissociative parts. But she also says that I told her about them. Now I'm not sure. How do you tell the difference between what is normal and what is dissociative? I know that in session, I will sometimes "switch" into a teenager- angry, defiant, slouching, limited...

Sorry in advance about the craziness. Today is one of those days. I'm sure I'm faking my symptoms. I'm sure I'm just acting like I was abused to get sympathy from others. I don't actually have any memories of sexual abuse, only strong reactions to triggers, and I could easily have worked myself...

I have to limit my time on here, because yeah, it triggers me. I have to decide if I have the free time to manage it.

Just here to say I empathize. My kids are very physical (4 rowdy boys), which is wonderfully fun and also horrible at the same time. One of my biggest triggers is having anything (especially hands) anywhere near my neck, and little arms naturally fit perfectly around necks. Sometimes I am...

Thanks, I've read some of the other threads on here, and I often feel like I can relate, but I'm not quite sure. It's good to know that at east some of this makes some sense.

She's not had a lot of experience with parts, but she's pretty understanding, and she is willing to try to understand better. She is also taking the opportunity to learn more on the subject. I don't have any evidence that I'm faking it, just a feeling sometimes.

I feel like I SHOULD have control, but have no desire to control it until afterward. Maybe awareness, but not really control? I feel like I overplay lots of things, but people I'm close to say I tend to underplay. I'm still tossing that one around. She isn't nearly as weirded out by all this as...

@Chava I started therapy because of over the top anger reactions. I also have (apparently) trauma reactions to some pretty specific things. I've always had trouble being intimate with my husband (I actually did black out one time there. I came back at the end and freaked out, because I had had...

Does this experience ring familiar for anyone else? I'm trying to figure out how I work. I know that everyone is unique, and there is a huge range of experience, but I feel crazy. I haven't been diagnosed with anything (my counselor isn't big on labels, and frankly I'm afraid to ask). I might...

I guess more like DID, although I'm not (not full blown anyway). I do experience parts, and I do dissociate some, but I stay generally aware. This was my body acting like a scared child, to the point that my husband was worried, while my mind just didn't feel anything.

I've had that experience before. Not fun.

Is it possible for just one part of you to be having a flashback? Usually, when I have a flashback, it is very emotional. There is a lot of fear and anger (mine tend to be mostly nonvisual), and I will shake or thrash about or curl up in a ball. But sometimes my body will react, while my mind...