Recent content by Spekx

It isn't about that at all. I told the doctor that I was having tremendous difficulty controlling my anger, irritability, and I was afraid that I was going to explode on some random person and end up in jail, while she spent time f*cking around with this bullshit med.......btw I was started on...

Perhaps we are different, I knew within 2 weeks that Wellbutrin was making me sick, I found out within 2 weeks that zoloft made my depression worse. I discovered that in two weeks Celexa was working for my depression. My HTCZ/Lisinopril worked immediately to lower my blood pressure. I've always...

To be honest Chava I haven't found anything "helpful" about the whole process of seeking help. I told my former "quack" that I would not take anymore medications for off label purposes, and she told me she wouldn't give me anything else. Why should I believe that any other "doctor" (and I use...

Well all, I've fired my Psychiatrist for prescribing this garbage to me, took it for a month.....it did nothing. When I told my Psychiatrist this she said I wasn't taking enough of it. This crap is garbage......and my psychiatrist is a quack for prescribing it to me...... f*ck it - I'll just...

It's not all you........I am irritable all the time.......my psych team is still trying to "balance" my meds.

@Chava you said "I was probably being sarcastic because I'm not sure what kind of 3 second search tells you that gabapentin is for bipolar" Perhaps you didn't look up psychiatric uses for Gabapentin, I don't really know. From a website I am not allowed to link because of spam prevention...

So I was just prescribed Gabapentin to treat my anxiety, but being the nerd that I am I looked this up and it looks like this is primarily used to treat bi-polar disorder...wtf....shouldn't somebody tell me if I am bi-polar? Are other people who are not bi-polar taking this medication for...

The fact is I have only just been diagnosed with PTSD (within a couple of months) although I am told by my T that its likely that I've had it for awhile and its symptoms have only just recently become unmanageable. Sorry for disrupting your thread with my ventings. But when anybody tries to...

@Peach no nothing yet, still waiting to hear something......

Yeah but its more like helplessness squared. I am already helpless in the sense that I am vastly outnumbered, but then I am additionally helpless because I lack the ability to even hurt one of them.

This seems like a strange question, has anybody ever been "cured" of PTSD? I don't think that things that have been seen, can ever be unseen. I don't think that experiences can ever be un-experienced. I think the trauma is forever, but learning to cope with your symptoms can help you live with...

Fearful, Irritable, and hopeful

Ok so I frequently have nightmares associated with my PTSD. Sometimes in these nightmares I am attempting to run away and sometimes I decide to stay and fight against impossible odds. Many times when I choose to fight, I go to throw a punch and it's like I am moving in slow motion, when I...

Would you mind explaining where my advantage kicks in for me specifically? I already explained how I get fewer opportunities then those people who are classified as "minority's". Do you think it matters to me in the slightest that there are many successful straight white males? Do you think it...

Well feel free to read my introduction, but I have a hard time believing in "white privilege" because I've never experienced any "advantage" in my life. Apparently my silver spoon was turned sideways and shoved straight up my @ss. I've been in foster care since I was two, I was treated poorly...