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The latest is that my doctor thinks I will need an exploratory laparoscopy (under GA, of course!) Seeing gynae on the 25th.

Time will tell, I guess. I haven't had any tests that could confirm whether there's something there or not. Well, I had an ultrasound three months ago which looked clear... but that only rules out large masses. Not small masses, or any problems hidden away in organ linings. So all I have to go...

Right now it isn't hurting, which I'm thankful for, but it feels like there's a balloon in there or something. It's impossible to ignore. I do know that lots of people with anxiety and other mental problems get the symptom of a lump in the throat. That's really common, and really can be caused...

Thank you for your kind replies. Yes, I am quite sure that my depression / mental state is due to my health concerns! There is something in my uterus or cervix that shouldn't be there. I don't know what it is. My body is trying to get rid of it, but can't. Maybe I am developing an infection...

Unfortunately at the moment there is nothing I like or enjoy. I used to enjoy my life very much. I liked going to the gym, watching films, reading, gaming, seeing friends, going on day trips... but the most I can hope for these days is something to occupy my time. On a good day I am able to read...

The funny thing is I don't even really feel panicked. My heart rate is low. Breathing is steady. I'm just lying here, knowing there is something wrong with me. I'm not sure about self care. I've sort of become incapable of looking after myself, so my mother is preparing all my food etc. I don't...

I saw my doctor who did a pelvic exam and confirmed that I have a tender uterus. She doesn't know why, and is going to speak to a gynecologist and call me next week with a way forward. She doesn't think it's anything serious and I don't expect any tests will be suggested. She wants me to try...

Thank you. In fact, I was given misoprostol 3 times. Twice to try to get the tissue out, and once before the MVA procedure. But the general anaesthetic episode came about a week after I took the miso, so I don't think it's that. Anyway. Off to the doctor today. I think I'm being referred back...

Well, the hysteroscopy would be under local if I did that. But I think I would need to go privately as my doctors don't think there's anything wrong. But if they found something during the hysteroscopy... who knows what I would need doing. I'm going to the doctor on Friday anyway to discuss it.

Thank you for your thoughtful reply. It's very kind. I'm not convinced unfortunately that the premonition is a defence. I'd rather deal with the other things. The only times I feel any better are when I've had a test done, that I've been sure will show something awful, and it's been clear. Then...

Thank you. The father would help, but I don't want to see him. It's just me and mum and an ex I'm very close to. I think the procedure you are referring to is a hysteroscopy. That's what I'm going to go for. I'm scared to do it. I'm confused about the general anaesthetic thing too. But there...

I stopped seeing my therapist. I couldn't leave the house. My dad has a friend who is a therapist and he's sending him round to see me today. But I haven't found therapy helpful so far. When the premonition occured, I was going through a miscarriage. Lots of women miscarry though so I don't...

Sorry, I have tried citalopram. But it made everything worse and I couldn't eat at all. So I stopped. I don't take anything now. Just diazepam occasionally before a medical appointment, though it doesn't always calm me. My doctors do not believe I need any more tests. They think I am a...

I've been told variously that I have anxiety, depression, OCD and PTSD. None seem to fit to me. I also went to an early intervention clinic but they said I was not psychotic. So this is not a delusion. Believe me, I would love to think that I was delusional and that these things I think are...

Thank you. I appreciate the replies. It just happened in one instant. I was dealing with several pretty heavy things, and had been for some time, but I was ok. I was coping. And then a doctor just said one thing to me. She said I would need the operation under general anaesthetic. And in that...