Recent content by Toadette

Yes, for sure. It's nice to feel there are alot of places on Earth where things that might be worrying you here don't matter. That we can at any time escape it. I have definitely associated airports with adventure in the best way possible :) Sometimes when things get too much here I will just...

Again, I totally agree! Funnily enough, me and my partner went on holiday not long ago and one of the things I was really looking forward to is being in the airport. I think you've hit the nail on the head as to why airports seem very...seperate from here. A reminder that there's something...

I feel you on this alot, but you have worded it when I don't think I could. These times are very difficult and I feel sometimes the world is very cold and unforgiving. I think it's great you wrote this because it helps to be reminded there are others out there who feel the same. That comforts me...

:hug: if you accept them

Yeah, I know that, and I will. I've commented on a couple or so threads before but idk, I feel kind of hypocritical when I try to give people advice when I have trouble comprehending the same stuff myself? In the past couple of years I've tried to give a lot more, but I will try to come on here...

Second your post, thank you everyone x

You're right, and our experiences seem to be similar. I know logically I'm looking back through a rose tinted camera lense but I guess it made me realise quite how much I crave the love I saw on the videos. I just want to make being here worthwhile and make that baby be someone it is good to be...

So, I haven't been on here in a while. I come on here only when I need something it seems. I feel like that's a pattern in my life and I'm sorry. Things were going okay, I've been motivated and have been seeing reward for it. Felt like life was going okay and that I was finally okay in myself...

Found a place with a trauma therapist, getting an assessment tomorrow. How's that for starters? :D On my way up!

I saw the diagnostic criteria for ptsd and the only thing I don't have is any in criterion C. So even if I don't have PTSD I definitely have a lot of issues associated with it for sure. I might be relocating to a different country soon with my partner so hopefully it'll be to somewhere that...

Also if I don't have PTSD is it still okay to be a member of this site? :giggle:

Thank you so much, you're right I think it's the best thing to do because regardless of any diagnosis I think talking to someone who specialises in trauma will definitely be good for me. I just really want to make sure that there is going to be some benefit to talking about the things I...

I'm really sorry I feel like I've been so ignorant just jumping on a PTSD diagnosis, I'm just really desperate to make some sense out of it all and I thought if my feelings were caused by trauma that it would most likely count as some form of PTSD. To be honest with you all I'm somewhat scared...

I just really feel alot of my problems stem from the bad things that happened, when does it cross the line from having symptoms from a trauma to ptsd? I didn't mean to disrespect anyone by self diagnosing and I know it's not good to do but I am so stuck with not knowing what is wrong in my head...

I'm going to call them tomorrow, going to talk to the people with the EMDR fund and see if they can help me get an assessment